Tuesday, December 25, 2007


saya tak pandai berkata, tapi...

jangan putus di tengah jalan ya.
altho sum of us will be turning into a different direction at this road with uncountable junctions, i hope we'll still use that walkie talkie and talk to each other.
eventhough each of us will be at different ends of the road, i hope that we'll use flyovers and see each other.
despite meeting new people along our journey, i hope that every one of us will never forget each other with whom they started the journey.

i am totally absolutely gila 100% grateful to have them in my life. mereka yang sabar dengan kerenah saya.

Saturday, December 15, 2007

december yang penuh

brrrrrr... it's freezing cold right now, but it's nothing compared to negri sembilan matrics at 6am when u can't even see the room next to yours. so, here i am spending my time as if it worths a penny. patut pulang ke meja belajar :P
talking about december 2007. i had a great hols! thanks to stuck crew and family! had shopping therapy to the max! bought looootsa stuff!

had stucks gathering, which means i should start ticking that 'Hopeful List'. guess who's the chef? not me, not anith, not mellie, not stuck crew, but AIZAT! adik anith yang telah meranapkan kereta dulu2!! aaah, berguna juga budak ni. hoh hoh. not bad juga dia masak. makasih bangat! so, next time, gathering will be at anith's again! jeah~

had a vacation. a short one. adventurous one. penuh ke'cerita jepun'an. penuh dengan ke'mat saleh di pantai'an. penuh dengan ke'beach yang lawa'an. :)

pimple siuuut T_T

matrics fren BOOSOO called me too. budak chumil yang suka kacau lipid orang. melampau sungguh XD (boosoo, lu tgh baca ni x? heh heh heh)

ayah's birthday will be at the end of this month. harus beli apa ya? harus beli apaaa T_T i usually depend on wani to decide and i'll just cash out sum money. bukankah lagi mudah?

the whole family is in egypt right now. our annual vacation T_T sedih sungguh. here i am di kelantan hanya bermimpikan piramid piramid. takpe lah. sunway pyramid pun jadi la. i wonder how wani is right now. with all those bumpy rides. HEH HEH HEH.

result exam pun dah kluar. Alhamdulillah, mungkin tak berapa flying colours, tapi masih boleh digembirakan. hoh. THINK POSITIVE!! THINK POSITIVE!!

p/s: a gift for mellie

HAHAHAHAHAHHA!!! cool ah pic ni XDDDD

:a gift from mellie

hmph! melampau sungguh!

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

back home tomolo!

Posted 25/11/2007 11:06
"moh le tengok gamba anak2 sdare ko kat page aku~ dorang smua rindu ko doh~ asek nyebut mak ira kih3"
that was a comment sent to me by wani. reading that, i know too well that i'm missing lotsa things. things will be the same for the next 4 1/2 years i guess. sumtimes, it gets too tempting to just change course, but thank God our education system doesn't work that way. u can't simply change course. this is a choice i made although without too much of thinking. i won't regret insya-Allah. i'll work my ass off now, battling to have my personal time in the future. i don't want a job that costs me my quality time. aku tak mahu kerja yang mencampur adukkan halal haram. i don't want a job involving politics, but that's impossible. at least i can avoid most of it in the future by being a dentist insya Allah. i want to give a smile to everybody. this might be the best choice. ah, how melancholic :P

Monday, November 26, 2007

another reason to uptake your cholesterol

i think, it's time for me to contribute sumthing thru this thing we call blog. let's digest sum scientific stuff...... NNNNEEEERRRDDD!!! (ahahahhaa, apa salah nya skali skala XD)
-guess what? high level of cholesterol is actually related to intelligence
reason: cholesterol contributes to increase in velocity of impulse transmission in your nerve cells
-the trick about eating lots of vegie with meat is, phytosterol in vegies which is a type of sterol (just like cholesterol) competes with cholesterol for absorption in your intestines
-don't eat lotsa liver (for those people who like to eat hati ayam lah apa lah). u might get vitamin A toxicity.

it's 2.07am and i am trying to channel out this boredom after squeezing the juice out of my brain to the last drop...................................................... that sounds disgusting. oh, i'm listening to the radio O.O i can't really remember when was the last time i did that. lately, the songs are becoming more stereotype than ever. it gets extremely obvious when i try to play them on the guitar. most involves the same chords. chet. do u notice one thing about hip hop songs (x r&b)? i mean, the not really good ones. they make this short length music, and they just repeat it until 4-5minutes, and voilla!! u get a hip hop song making its way into the billboard top 100! how amusing. not to mention about the lyric. all about cheapness? cheap ladies? cheap guys (XD)? cheap life? everything gets sooo cheap nowaday, isn't it? hope it goes the same with groceries n stuff. i'm draining my money on stuff like laundry and detergents.

ok, i don't know where is this heading actually. till next post, oyasuminasai!

Thursday, November 22, 2007

distress @ stress @ eustress?

stressed of course. exam is drawing nearer, and nearer, and nearer, and nearer, an.... this time, it'll be the challenge to either maintaining the result, or perhaps improving it. sedar tak sedar, dah masuk selanjar 2. next is selanjar 3. then, the professional 1. then, year 2!! year 3!! year 4!! year 5!! graduation!! looking forward to that! 4tahun lebih je lagi. insya-Allah boleh! anyway, Alhamdulillah, USM diiktiraf sebagai universiti ke-2 terbaik dalam Malaysia selepas UM :)

Monday, November 12, 2007

oleh itu

i don't need a friend who is moody most of the time. my day is not for you to crush.
i don't need a friend who only spits out lies. your body speaks your mind.
i don't need a friend who is selfish. i have my own limit of selflessness.
i don't need a friend who fakes herself in front of me. i am not that stupid to figure you out.
i don't need a friend who doesn't share my happiness. the world doesn't revolve around you.
i don't need a friend who never admits her mistake. ego bukan untuk dibela.

i am not a person to be kicked around. i am absolutely not your 'reserve' friend. i know too well that many more people are by my side. you are absolutely not needed here. thank you for making me think that 'friendship' was actually in your dictionary. obviously it's not. i'm sorry if this hurt you. actually, i'd be surprise if it do because my mind is denying that you have feelings. maybe you have, but it's for you and... yourself alone. hope you will not do the same thing to other so-called 'friends' you still have. it's just a matter of time for your real self to show up.

Sunday, November 4, 2007


aku takut. takut aku lupa di mana bumi dengan rezeki yang melimpah-ruah ni. aku takut. takut aku rasa takbur. riak. sombong. aku takut. takut sangat. takut aku akan rasa superior. takut wujudnya bisikan "aku paling hebat" dalam diri. aku takut. takut aku meninggi diri, memandang rendah yang lain. aku takut. takut diri lupa Tuhan dengan semua yang dah Dia bagi pada aku. takut aku tak berasa syukur. aku takut. takutkan tanggungjawab yang berat di bahu. takut kalau aku tak dapat menunaikan janji yang telah aku buat di alam roh dulu. aku takut. takut aku leka dengan nikmat yang Allah bagi. takut aku terlampau khusyuk dengan hal duniawi. takut aku lupa dosa pahala. aku takut, aku takut, aku sangat takut. aku patut sentiasa beringat.

Saturday, November 3, 2007

aku berjiwa lelaki?

city ruins life quality, don't you think so?

anyway, yesterday, sum dental students had a practice for a performance we're about to do this 6th november. only 3 days away *jeepers*. we'll be doing a pantomime. as anybody can predict, i'll be the music again XD sumhow, words about my performances at matrix previously passed around here. near midnight, i hung out with sum of the dental guys. agaknya diorang jakon tengok perempuan main guitar which is not a rare thing in subang. aku jadi kuli batak/jukebox busuk doing all their requests. the next thing i knew was we were talking about games. i said i like warcraft the most. tiba-tiba... diorang kata 'dia ni memang berjiwa lelaki'................................................................. WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT!!! aku x boleh terima hakikat! biasa je la perempuan buat benda-benda ni.

tapi... bila fikir betul-betul balik... mungkin ada betulnya jugak. back home, i'll be the macgyver, repairing all those stuff which was supposed to be my elder brother's job. barbie dolls were not my best interest. all dolls that i got ended up with their hair being cut. when all girls were still fancying main masak-masak, i was busy playing Sango Fighter, Street Fighter, n Mortal Kombat with my elder brother. as i enter adolescence, when all girls were busy fancying guys, i was busy learning how to play guitar and other musical instruments, but above all, i never regret that they happened. perhaps because i made ayah my main idol. i admire how he handles problems. staying calm is his style. that's why i have issues with people urging me and being gelabah. he always have reasons behind his every action. yang lain selalu marah dia. mungkin sebab diorang tak faham cara dia. he always think a step ahead. i realized lately that i'm already adopting this. selalu aja orang marah aku sebab tak faham apa aku fikir. benci betul. >:o

masa awal-awal dulu, ayah punya la seronok aku kena campak kat kelantan ni. mungkin bagi dia, akhirnya aku dapat dipisahkan dari subang yang penuh dengan kotoran hitam. jangan salah anggap. memang saya sayang subang. macam-macam dapat belajar kat sana, but the reality is... subang memang penuh dengan benda kotor. betul juga... memang duduk kat kelantan ni, kurang sikit syaitan aku XD solat pun Alhamdulillah hampir cukup. kadang-kadang tertidur, terlajak T_T zahirah... zahirah...

Sunday, October 28, 2007

dirty little....

dirty little bugs!!!!!!!

ada binatang ni. kami panggil dia kesing. dia serangga. busuk nak mati. kessing kills. apa nk buat ni?

ada binatang ni. kami tak tahu panggil dia apa. dia serangga. dia makan kayu. tahi @ telur (nt sure which one) dia jatuh setiap hari macam salji yang mempunyai tekstur seperti pasir. apa nak buat ni? -_-'''

dirty little desires!!!

sumhow, i still have this little desire to pierce my lips again just like i did when i was 15, but i'm in dental school. this is obviously not an option for me.

sumhow, i still want to huff a puff once in a while, but i know very well that i can't anymore. i'd cough if i do so :P

sumtimes, i just want to laze around, take my time looking at the sky. if only we have a field with lavenders around. berangan lagi aku ni.

sumtimes, i wish i'm back in subang. maybe enroll in any dental school nearby, but i know very well that if i'm stuck at subang, i'd probably be sumone i'm not today. i'd probably be yet another subang spoilt brat. susahnya tinggal di subang x jadi spoilt.

sumtimes, i crave for the feeling of being carefree. carrying no responsibility on my shoulder, but i'm no longer a child. i'm an adult-in-the-making. one day, i'll have to totally stand on my own feet and face the world.

everybody has their own dirty little desires. nak buat atau taknak. they differ at that point :P am i wrong for telling this out?............ tak kot.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

raya was GREAAAAAAT!!!!!

first thing first....
*sorry aku wish lambat... T_T x sngaja T_T sayang kau :P

ok, back to the topic.

raya this time turned out to be way better than i expected! altho kampong sebelah tok mak di endau-rompin yang lawa x ramai sangat saudara balik kali ni, raya was still A-ok! take it this way... x ramai sangat dari ENAM PULUH sepupu. takdelah sikit sangat :P both syidah n hafiz were at sarawak. one is studying n the other is working his ass off. selamat berjaya kpd anda berdua! :D o yea, i visited my old matrix friend's house too! rumah fariza dkat kampong jiran. fariza, aku sangat happy dapat jumpa kau!

next, raya kampong sebelah tok abah di jb... whoops! kampong? bukak pintu nampak danga bay, baik panggil rumah. seronok juga!!! 11.30pm, the day we arrived, i asked along to bring me pusing pusing around danga bay.in the end, instead of me alone, wani, ahmad, n 2 nieces - anis & najmi joined us XD

guess what? along yang confident macam tahu jalan around jb SESAT!!! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH!!! si najmi pun macam confident... najmi + along = sesat sokmo!!! HAHAHAHAHHAHAH!!! so, in the end, we arrived at danga bay near 1am. thank God jb jenis bandar malam. so, all shops were still open :D kononnya nak minum-minum. last skali, order banyak gila sate & kepak ayam madu. memang syok!!!!

the next day, we headed for home where heart is :) esoknya, i did sum shopping with mel, just like i promised her. hella, i bought lotsa stuff. melayang RM400 aku, bt, i don't think i can be blamed on this bcause... takkan aku nak cari barang2 tu kat kelantan. kena realistic sikit. 1st time mel x shopping banyak HAHAHAHHHAHA! she bought 2 pairs of shoes though >:D

nafsu shopping dah dipuaskan. it's open house, the day after! i didn't expect many to show up since sum told me that they were having class on that day. the open house was supposed to start at 12pm, yet around 1pm nobody showed up as if confirming my prediction. tiba2... ain sampai!! bersama kawan karibnya, athirah :D lpas tu, nabilah. lpas tu, dz. lpas tu, kurol & the gang. lpas tu, RAMAI LAGI!!!!!! terharunya saya, ramai sangat sangat showed up T_T dekat 30orang datang~ sampai makanan pun habis! wani kata mau ajak kawan 5orang, tapi sorang je bole datang... katanya lah masa awal2. tiba-tiba, hambik kau!!! nak 20orang jugak kawan dia datang! gila pak... when they were about to excuse themselves, umi said "dah lawa dah masing-masing".................. :) in the evening, may, fana, thirah, fatin, mel, and i fulfilled a friend's open house. si azwan punya. da kurus laki tu haha. anyway, we were feeling very (perhaps extremely) awkward sbab ramai orang tak kenal atau pernah kenal tapi buat-buat tak kenal (lol). anyway, azwan tetap baik layan kitorang. jeah (macam dia slalu cakap)! sadly, i don't really have pics to show here since i haven't gotten them from may. connection kura-kura, tambah dgn athirah pakai camera lense jenis srl which means gambar smua saiz gajah. transfer pun lama T_T. will update the pics later. in the mean time, will put up the pics from my phone :P lopek

at night, i was thinking of getting sum rest since i'll be heading back to kelantan 2 days after. *Shiori by Aqua Timez plays*. oh! msg dari kurol saying hanafi invited me to his open house dekat........ SUNGAI BULOH????? PURKINJE (per-keen-jay) FIBRE??? mcm la aku bole bawak kereta (pathetic kan?)! i was about to reject the invitation until kurol told me that all we hav to do is to go to the commuter station at sungai buloh and hanafi will pick us up there. wokie dokie! so, pegi la rumah hanafi. hanafi drove a white myvi.

"napi, kereta kau ke? gila syok"

"oh, ha ah!"

(i noticed sum female shoes at the back)" tapi wey, kenapa ada kasut perempuan ni?"


"kau ada hobby pelik pelik eh?? hahahahah! kereta kakak kau rupanya! gila kantoi!"

fat chance, napi! kau x bole tipu aku ahahaha~ bt yea, we were only joking around :) around 2pm we arrived at hanafi's fantabulous house. i felt awkward (again) bcoz i was the only female around. 4pm, i told kurol i wanted to go home. da lambat dey. dalam perjalanan bersama hanafi, awol, n kurol, we suddenly talked about shopping complexes nearby. all i know is the next 5 minutes, we were already on our way to one utama. AHAHHAHAH! shopping lagi! memang puas shopping kali ni!! :D the guys followed me anywhere i went which made me feel awkward (again n again), so, i shooed them >:D diorang kata diorang bukan nak shopping pun. geez... kenapa baik sangat? lelaki memang slalu sabar. i have to admit. so, i tried to repay them by offering to treat them with pizza (mula2 diorang kata nak makan pizza). tiba2, kata kenyang pulak. then, ntah macam mana, belanja diorang sushi. melayang lagi rm150 aku. O.O korang! u guys made my day!

hari seterusnya, dengan rasa berat hati, i headed to lcct in sepang with umi. back to kelantan with ain it shall be. can u believe it? i actually dropped a tear when umi n i were about to go seperate ways. the holiday felt too short. i don't think i've spent enough time with umi, ayah, wani, along, n ahmad. family means a lot.

summary is... raya is a beautiful month. cherish it. use it to the fullest. appreciate it. :)

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

what a habit

pelik lah. ingatkan orang makin pandai makin humble. rupa-rupanya makin ego. semua yang dia buat betul. human is not perfect. u are not and neither do i. let us all have a slice of humble pie. bijak pandai itu bila-bila saja boleh ditarik balik. terang minda bila-bila saja boleh jadi gelap gelita.

some people view competition negatively. whoohoo that's bad. competition = threat? no no no. competition = another target for you.

Wednesday, October 3, 2007


whadda u know... the results were out just now. so far had been the most anticipated thing since i entered this university, but i didn't expect for us to get it this early......... early? tak jugak. budak medic dapat sejam lagi awal and dental students were left in uncertainty dengan hati yang gundah gulana.

2.00pm- ain shafiyah msged me:
Slm z. Ak tau kau tgh sengsara nk tunggu rsult! Ekeke. Saba2 ~ Ak yakin kau bule! NnT sms ak. Hehe! Ak sgt hepi aku lulus!!

congrats ain dan terima kasih T_T!!! kau banyak tolong aku.

dalam 2.30pm, result pun keluar, mengikut kata encik lah. Alhamdulillah, praises to Allah... i just could not ask for more from Him. terima kasih umi, ayah, wani, ahmad, along, dan yang lain yang dah doakan aku walaupun selalu saja aku bising-bising mengungkit rasa risau. aku tau aku annoying masa tu :P Alhamdulillah sekali lagi.


Saturday, September 29, 2007


woohoooo~ i'll be home in less than 2 week for raya~!!! ^_^ altho it's only for a week :P i really need to defrag this brain of mine.

since the past continuous exam, everybody here seems to be on tip-toe. it's extremely hard to see them having a break. this freaks me out. will i be like that? i think i'm already 1/2 way through. seriously, i've never been in such situation bfor. people here don't really do last minute studies. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA takot siot

Friday, September 21, 2007

Al-Fatihah untuk Allahyarhamah adik Nurin Jazlin Jazimin

from http://www.utusan.com.my/

"KUALA LUMPUR 21 Sept. - Tangisan dan deraian air mata orang ramai, tanpa mengira kaum, umur dan keturunan, mengiringi pemergian Nurin Jazlin Jazimin, kanak-kanak mangsa culik yang mati dibunuh, ketika dikebumikan di Tanah Perkuburan Islam Taman Ibu Kota, Gombak, di sini petang ini.
Jenazah itu dimasukkan ke liang lahad tepat pada pukul 2.45 petang ini selepas solat Jumaat, sambil disaksikan oleh ibu bapanya, Jazimin Abdul Jalil, 33, dan Norazian Bistaman, 35, dan kaum keluarga serta jiran...."

it was discovered that the bacterial infection due to rupture of the rectum caused by insertion of brinjal and cucumber is one of the factor that lead to her death. buat pertama kali, aku tak rasa bersalah cakap ni. vulgar ke tak vulgar. bastard. the person who did it is a real bastard, sexmaniac, psychopath, pathetic! what's wrong with people nowadays? stick with watching porno, will ya. keep your hands off innocent people! i wonder what was in that psycho's head when he did such sinful act on an innocent child? all values put aside for the sake of the devil's whisper?? may he burn in hell. only God can forgive him.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

hoodlee DOOO!!!!

at last!!! my medic continuous exam 1 is over!!! all i can do now is to pray and hope T_T insya Allah. jeepers... i should not be too relieved since the dental continuous exam 1 is just around the corner. barely 10 days left. T_T again. anyhoo, we all deserve a REST!!! at least a day. that will do. thank you.

my place and ain's looked like a dumpster. the aftermath of the exam.

gila man, i slept from 5pm to 9pm today. kata orang - qadha' tidur - defined as to cover back all those almost sleepless nights. since encik bulan datang melawat lagi, i couldn't fast, which means no sesi berbuka puasa too. so, as predicted, i woke up with the sound of my stomach doing its usual drumroll. the cafe is only open till 7pm. i could not help but to think of deliveries. straight to the phone, tooot! tooot! tooot!, called pizza hut :D hella it caused me a fortune (macam beli rumah je), but it's worth it. stomach condition is at its best right now :)

oh yea... i forgot. i have lactose intolerance. i ate cheese. it's a dairy product. bad news, roomies, but, hey, i read in a magazine sumthing about farts might make you healthy. HOW VIIIIIIEEEEEERD!!

esok ada entrepreneurship quiz. what a fuss. oh, i forgot (again). i have not written anything on this entrepreneurship thingy, have i? well, it seems that they added yet another module to our already 99% packed curriculum. the entrepreneurship module. apparently, mr. i-dunno-who-on-earth-but-might-be-a-VVIP complained about graduates lacking in entrepreneurship. dr fadhli complained too, except that he's on our side. he said sumthing about what does entrepreneurship has to do with dentistry. perhaps the government wants us to open our own dental clinic instead of clinging to theirs. as an ambivalent person, there is a part of it that i like. for once, sumthing related to the curriculum requires the students to interact with others. bagus juga. and, it brought me back to eustress condition, which is good.

SO! the practical part was over last couple of weeks. we had to do sum business on our Hari Terbuka Desa. can you believe it? they made us do it 2 weeks before the exam. Alhamdulillah, we made sum profit. not bad for a dental student. not bad at all.

(left to right: akak senioritas, ikrar, mail, hafiz, iqbal) check out those 3 guys. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH CANNOT GO!!!!

p/s: vocabulary of the day: cannot go = tak bole bla

Sunday, September 16, 2007

when everything falls apart, you turn to...

*a few days ago*

something happened here and it bugged me like hell. fikiran rimas serabut! i guess i'd been keeping everything to myself and could not find anybody here to talk to. unexpectedly, umi gave me a call, and like all homo sapien with feelings, i broke down and cried. i think i cried out about 2/3 of my body fluid :P ayah kata, kalau orang tu memang hanya buat hati kita susah, elaklah dia. tapi, jangan sampai kita asingkan diri. i'm not the kind of person who explodes easily, but once i do, forgiving and forgetting will take a long long long time. i told ayah, i tried to follow his and umi's advice, but i just could not bring myself to talk to them. ayah replied sumthing like, Rasulullah S.A.W berkata, kalau bercakap itu perak, diam itu adalah lebih baik. buat baik berpada-pada, jahat jangan sekali. don't be too nice to sumbody. you'll never know when they'll do crappy stuff to you :P

parents always give the best advice :D

p/s:i guess... as long as you haven't lived with that person, you'll never get to know his/her real self, right?

Friday, September 7, 2007

berhenti main-main

well, played this game a number of times... erm... maybe a lil bit more... OK, LOTSA times. wanted to install other games, but, there's almost no way i can control myself then.

hm... beberapa hari ni sangat mendebarkan. buat pertama kali, akan ambil exam selanjar 1 medic & dental. belum tahu lagi tinggi rendah langit. last year, only 30% of medic + dental students passed it. let me emphasize on that ya. PASSED. bukan dapat A. hopefully, i'll be in that group this time. insya-Allah. wish me luck n all the best yah!

2 orang kesayangan suda ntah apa jadi. saya sedih.

these few days juga sangat rasa penat. bangun pun lambat. subuh terlajak slalu :( alarm clock berbunyi, tapi automatic je tangan 'PAP!!' tekan snooze. perhaps kene tukar sikit pemikiran. ikut kata ain roommate... da dalam kepala macam tu! yah, mungkin juga. duration tidur pun decrease perlahan2. sacrifice for a better future. insya-Allah worth it. for my parents. most importantly, for myself.

Saturday, September 1, 2007

selamat hari merdeka!!!

happy 50th independence day~

this time, i celebrated it in another state other than slangor. another different enviroment :) sue n i went to kb mall (where else...) kononnya nak release tension. besides, we deserve a break :P

that's a pic of sue n two chumil chinese girls i took while we were buying some name stickers for sue. i think, this is one of the beautiful side of kelantan. the chinese and indian here speak malay with kelantanese accent. bagus kan?

around 10pm, we headed back to the campus. main-main sikit. tengok RTM (XD), did countdown together with orang bilik depan and roommate. ini mungkin kelakar... tapi, agak dibanggakan... we actually stood up when the Negaraku song was played. well, sum people laughed about this, but, should u call yourself a patriot if u can't even do such petty thing?

the next day, it's back to the table, babe. this is how my table usually looks like. serabut tak kemas sakai. ah! so what! ketupat, i berak u jilat, i kentut, u sedut! ahahahhahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahah *puas hati ^_^*

yesterday, the Nasyid Symphony Independence Concert (direct translation haha) was held here. ada abang muka jamboo chumil performed. hahahhaa, rossak... rossak... he's actually in this Nasyid group called Devotees which performed at that night. anyhooo~ i was very happy and totally enjoyed the show mainly bcause i haven't done such thing since i was standard 6. when i was in sekolah agama (standard 1-6), a nasyid group, Raihan, used to come there many times. masuk skolah menengah, memang no chance ah. paling banyak, diorang panggil... R... E...S... RESHMONU! gah~

Friday, August 24, 2007

the day i inhaled oxygen straight from the air


since my late headsets were lost, i had to buy a new one. not being able to listen to the songs in my phone while in the lecture hall kills!!! so, ain, her roommates-ili & atiq, n i went to Kota Bharu Mall (kb mall). i decided to go separate ways. kasihan diorang, takkan nak tercongok kat tepi while i search for the headset. ya Allah... i went to about 7 handphone shops and all of them gave me the same answer, "takde doh abih doh". T_T sangat frustrated, so i resorted to give my mom a call. SUDDENLY, i saw a red coloured shop with looooooottsa handphone accessories. with a not-so-high-hope, i entered the shop which barely had any customer.

"bang, ada headset sony tak?"

"hok mana tu?"

"yang walkman"

"hm......" *paused* ............................................ "ada"

WOWOWOWOWWOWOWOOWO!! happy gila nek, Alhamdulillah dapat!!! kalau x, dah nak susahkan parents lagi mintak post headset dr subang T_T anyhoooo~ after that, i called ain, asking her whereabouts. payahnya dia nak jawab. brapa kali tah dah called dia. 3 kali kot... kepala pun da start berasap sikit. :P when i found them (at last!!), i saw atiq holding a balik kampong bag. ain said atiq just bought it... for sum reason... -_-'

so, after doing sum window shopping, we headed back home. while we were in the cab...

"z, aku ada notes terminology. kau nak tak?", ain said.

"ha? boleh boleh!"

"k, kau tunggu aku kat bawah nanti eh"

"la, ain... pass je ah esok. kan kita ada lecture"

"ala... malasnya nak pegi lecture esok tu..."

*argue argue argue* finally... "ok, ok, aku tunggu ah kat bawah", i said.

atiq went to my block (our rooms are in different blocks) to see her friend.

ok, suda beres smua, balik bilik ah. tiba-tiba... AAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! pintu kunci!!!! thank God my roommate gave me her keys T_T bila masuk bilik...


TERKEJUT BERUK CHIMPANZEE CHIHUAHUA AKU!!!!!!!! A SURPRISE BURFDAY PARTY!!!!!!! it turned out that there's no such thing as TERMINOLOGY NOTES! it was just an attempt to hold me back for awhile while atiq n ili went to my room to prepare the surprise party. the balik kampong bag? it was actually ain's bag!! they were hiding the cake in the bag. ASTAGHFIRULLAHAL'AZIM!!!!! kene tipooo abis abis siuuuutttt!!

the cake that they bought for me, before & after... kami rakus. ahahahahhahaha

the masterminds T_T

masterminds with si kena tipooo T_T

aaaaaaaa~~~~ korang!!!!!! AIN!! ILI!! ATIQ!! AIN RMATE!! SU!! AINA!! FAZA!! FIZA!! ZILA!! TERIMA KASIH DOMO ARIGATO GOZAIMASU!!!! SAYANG SAMA KAMUUUU!!!! THARU!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!! praises to God for every single thing that happened in my life and others' too.

p/s: Alhamdulillah...

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

encik bulan, tolonggg

aaaaaaaaa!!! i need sum entertainment here. i lost my headsets when i was on my way back to usm. have to blame this one kid apart from blaming myself. he was walking all over the plane!! my headsets detached from my handphone almost a hundred times and at last... HILANG. thank God the scholarship is out. RM80, and i'll get my hands on a pair of new ones :D i might buy 2 pairs. heh heh heh

wani, aku miss time mcm masa tgk hujan perform T_T
mel, i miss pegi shopping sampai lenguh kaki dengan u
along, aku tau kau x baca ni, tapi da lama x baca komik cina kau
anith, aku nak naik kereta kau. x kisah la kalau bukan kereta yang aizat da jahanamkan
may, hanna, kishie, gue rindu mau jam sama kalian
abang mokhtar, nak pegi studio penta T_T
selangor, i miss the shopping complexes
headsets, if only u hav legs... come back to me T_T

p/s: sumone asked, encik bulan siapa? encik bulan sebenarnya ialah............................................. si menstrual cycle hahahahhaha


on a windy day~ the falling flowers were beeeeaauuuuutiful! sumhow reminded me of sakura T_T sumbody, please, bring me to Japan. i'm done with Europe, thank u. well... another reminder to myself- collect money, be a good dentist, and go to Nippon in 10years time.

oh, oh... encik bulan dah datang melawat hari ni. penatnya layan encik bulan, so, tertidur around 8pm, and woke up at 10pm. so, mata tabley lelap sekarang. so, duduk depan pc, blog sikit. so, sekarang mata mengantuk balik. so, oyasumi~

Wednesday, July 25, 2007


woh... gila packed nenek schedule this time. having Cell & Tissue block which is basically refreshing back matriculation bio, but digging it deeper this time. kind of feeling the pressure a lil bit already. with most of the sensei giving lecture more and more like shinkansen, i'm starting to feel a little pressure. senpai told me about this earlier, but...

anyway, i'v been joining the wushu drum club here where i am the only non-chinese member. a good friend, lim min hui asked me to join. so what? have to admit that felt quite out of place (especially because they speak 90% in chinese, but thanks to many senpai who became my... interpreter :P) at first, but yeah, that thing syok ah. almost everybody who passed by looked at me and sum even had the nerve to point finger at me.
this mentality of chinese stuff is only for chinese and malay stuff is only for malay that most malaysians have really NEED to be changed. what are all those craps people have been saying in tv about malaysia being a beautiful country with many races living HARMONIOUSLY. only one word...


serious cakap. it's not that obvious in places like subang, but once u come here... it's pretty obvious. :(

oh... i haven't told about my roommates, have i? mereka adalah 2 orang yang sangat sangat baik. VERY VERY patient since they can stand my kerenah. sayang sama mereka T_T praises to God :)

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

blogging at THE PLACE

jeahhh~ here i am, writing a blog at the library of usm.

what can i say about my days here so far...

well, well, well, believe it or not, the lecture is on already. what freaked me out the most is dentistry students have to study medic for the first 3 years. this means, we have to attend both medic AND dental classes. when medic students have their 'self study' period, we'll be having our dental classes and will soon be carving teeth out of a chunk of wax. so, basically, our schedule is frigging packed, altho sum said we are lucky to have lectures that don't drag on till night, but, honey, night is the time for us to go to library to revise since the lecture usually goes on rapidly like shinkansen (bullet train).

2 days bfor, i read Hippocrates Doctors' Oath and The Muslim Doctors' Oath. frankly, i was quite down at that time mainly bcoz of my worries on not able to cope with dentistry. however, after reading those oaths, 98% of my worries subsided.

I swear by Apollo Physician and Asclepius and Hygieia and Panaceia and all the gods and goddesses, making them my witnesses, that I will fulfil according to my ability and judgment this oath and this covenant:

To hold him who has taught me this art as equal to my parents and to live my life in partnership with him, and if he is in need of money to give him a share of mine, and to regard his offspring as equal to my brothers in male lineage and to teach them this art - if they desire to learn it - without fee and covenant; to give a share of precepts and oral instruction and all the other learning to my sons and to the sons of him who has instructed me and to pupils who have signed the covenant and have taken an oath according to the medical law, but no one else.

I will apply dietetic measures for the benefit of the sick according to my ability and judgment; I will keep them from harm and injustice.

I will neither give a deadly drug to anybody who asked for it, nor will I make a suggestion to this effect. Similarly I will not give to a woman an abortive remedy. In purity and holiness I will guard my life and my art.

I will not use the knife, not even on sufferers from stone, but will withdraw in favor of such men as are engaged in this work.

Whatever houses I may visit, I will come for the benefit of the sick, remaining free of all intentional injustice, of all mischief and in particular of sexual relations with both female and male persons, be they free or slaves.

What I may see or hear in the course of the treatment or even outside of the treatment in regard to the life of men, which on no account one must spread abroad, I will keep to myself, holding such things shameful to be spoken about.

If I fulfil this oath and do not violate it, may it be granted to me to enjoy life and art, being honored with fame among all men for all time to come; if I transgress it and swear falsely, may the opposite of all this be my lot.

Translation from the Greek by Ludwig Edelstein. From The Hippocratic Oath: Text, Translation, and Interpretation, by Ludwig Edelstein. Baltimore: Johns Hopkins Press, 1943.

International Conference on Islamic Medicine

Kuwait, 1981

In the name of Allah Most Gracious, Most Merciful

I swear by Allah ....the Great To regard Allah in carrying out my profession. To protect human life in all stages and under all circumstances, doing my utmost to rescue it from death, malady, pain and anxiety. To keep peoples' dignity, cover their privacies and lock up their secrets... To be ,all the way, an instrument of Allah's mercy, extending my medical care to near and far, virtuous and sinner, friend and enemy.... To strive in the pursuit of knowledge and harnessing it for the benefit but not the harm of mankind.... To revere my teachers, teach my juniors and be brother to members of the Medical Profession joined in piety and charity. To live my faith in private and in public, avoiding whatever blemishes me in the eyes of Allah, His Apostle and my fellow Faithful.

And may Allah be the witness to this oath.

if there r other people who got degree or even PhD... why can't i? it's just the matter of whether i really want this or not. i just have to keep this spirit alive in me. hold myself together. i'm quite worried with the freedom the university grant us. no curfew. we'r free to do anything we want. wear anything we want (as long as jangan bugil ke apa haha). cyber cafe banyak gila and most of them r open to all students FOR FREE. despite this freedom i'm having... i always remind myself of my parents, their advices, their hopes. i miss them a lot. i miss everybody in subang T_T. i really really really appreciate the support that all of you have been giving me. *sob...*

Friday, June 29, 2007

tomorrow, 7.50am :'O

i have 7hrs and 53mins left till the plane departs. :'(

thanx, hannah,syawa, mel, may, thirah, and fana. i had a great time today... or shall i say, i had a GREAT HOLIDAY!!! we ate at Kedai Kopi at shah alam. it was sum kind of... last time meeting up with them before i go to kelantan
(this is making me feel terribly sad again).

God, please help me on this...

oh!! it's 12.15am already!! technically, i'm going to kelantan today. i can't believe the day has arrived at last. i can't believe i am actually about to do dentistry. this very person who was punished to stand outside the class, had to stand beside the blackboard for not finishing her homework, who almost never finished it actually, who was a very extremely supremo lazy person, who at first applied for culinary arts and architecture which had nothing to do with science. i'm sure that this happens for good. i can't be stranded here forever.

i'm hoping things will be good for me there. i believe, everything will be great for all my frens too. with everybody's support...

GANBATTE, zekku-chan!!! GANBATTE, everybody!!!!

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

goodbye subang... again :'(

it's 1.19am, wednesday, 27th june 2007. time could not fly any faster than this. i'll be flying to kelantan this saturday already. gonna miss everybody A LOT. well, maybe this is the price of a guarantee to a brighter future which everybody is looking for.

"setiap perkara ada hikmahnya"

i believe in this so much. the day before yesterday, i went to OU (one utama) to shop for sum stuff i'll be needing at kelantan with anith n mel. at first it was fun, until i found out that i only bought 3 things out of the never-ending list at the end of the day, not to mention i haven't opened an account at maybank. well, THAT, i can't blame myself since they were offline. i had to excuse myself from joining the stucks later at OU. i had to go to Pyramid and Parade yesterday to get sum other stuff. then, things started to get clearer...

1. when i did my second attempt to open an account, it took almost 1 1/2 hour!! if i got to do so before, it would surely trouble mel and anith.

2. if i rushed to buy the ipanema flip-flops at OU the day before yesterday since i did not have a lot of choices at that time, i would never discover the nicer ones at pyramid yesterday.

a little bit of a rewind...

sunday, 24th june 2007. fana invited me and sum other to her beautiful house for a gathering. she made THREE delicious choc cakes *yummy*. she's really good at it :D

i decided that our day would be wasted if we just go home. then came THE PLAN. "pegi eye on Malaysia, nak??", mel said. all of us agreed to go there, to a place we didn't even know of its whereabouts. the journey was CRAZY!!! we called almost everybody, trying to get all help that we could get and still we were lost, just because of 2 damned roundabouts that we missed.

oh! have i mention about the CAR BREAKDOWN? anith were driving an AMT Savvy. we were on auto, until anith accidently switched to manual. it shouldn't be a problem until the engine died and resisted our desperate attempts on starting it. we were in the middle of a busy road in KL, but at last (thank God), anith successfully (and gloriously) started the engine. almost 3 hours were wasted and we all resorted that going home is the best option. well, at least, dapat spend masa dengan mereka :)

btw, reading surveys on bulletin boards are really getting annoying. i thought, the purpose of a bulletin is to promote sumthing, to spread news, and other stuff that are IMPORTANT?? wat bugs me is the title of those bulletins sounded like important, padahal it's just another survey that i believe has no significance in one's life except for the author herself. if u wanna say that u want to tell everybody about yourself or wat has been happening in your life... there are blogs and profile networks yang dah lengkap ada 'About Me' space.

p/s: tak tengok muka mel n myself lagi... we didn't get a clear photo on that. so, letak la one photo on anith ^_^

Monday, June 18, 2007

Alhamdulillah... tapi takot

so... the anticipation has ended. Alhamdulillah. it's mixed feelings right now. i'm not really sure wat to write. mixed mixed mixed feelings machigai kimochi. i know that i've been wanting to do Dentistry since i was in matrics, and this Universiti Sains Malaysia (USM) is a good university and that's the very reason why i applied for it. tapi... now that it is ALREADY in my hands.................. university tu kat KELANTAN weh!!!! takot. takot. takot.

NO NO NO, i should NOT be like this. think positive!!

yeah... i can do this!!

Sunday, June 17, 2007

Figure 8ight Junk Fest, syok one!!

umi went to kelantan, ayah went to singapore, the maid went back home.

when the cat's away, the mice will play :D

so, my sis, wani, her fren, haniza, n i went to Central Market (a place i never went before, can u believe it??) to attend Figure 8ight Junk Fest. ah, AT LAST!! i'm doing sumthing out of the ordinary (thanx, wani, sbab bawak aku :)). my time has been spent with shopping, shopping, n shopping, n it do bore me a little after awhile. i did go to sum of this kinda things, but... oh jarangnya. believe me, JARANG gila, that i can count using my fingers.

dah, cukup membebel. anyway, it was fun~ especially those stuff that they sold there :D ktorang yang serba x malu took free stuff, heh heh. begitu juga ada ambik gambar skit-skit. erm... sikit keeee...?

it was especially worth while since i got to see one of my favourite local bands, Tempered Mental!! wani ckp vox dia kene beli insurans jari, but i thought she's a great bassist. we also got to see Reef and Hujan. Hujan did a great performance! the crowd was... erm... too excited maybe, that the management had to ask half of the crowd to get out of there. apparently, the floor was about to collapse. it's an old building. u can't blame them -_- u should see the expression of the host. hahahah... macam buat-buat garang, but nobody moved at first until another guy suddenly appeared from nowhere jerit-jerit suruh gerak.

while i was browsing, suddenly, "zahirah!", terkezut! rupa-rupanya abang mokhtar of the Mokhtarizal Studio. i noticed him earlier, but he was busy at that time since he's the soundman of the event. had a nice little chat. dia dah kurus weh... i told him so, and he just laughed. the same, old, cool punya abang mokhtar. anyway, now that he's in charge of such event... he is getting sumwhere isn't it? gila ah... mula-mula took-over Pentatonic Studio. so, after wishing him luck, we all took off. mau hantar haniza balik ma. it's good to see him though, the person who helped my band A LOT, apart from abang hatta n kelvin. i wonder how r they... i heard abang hatta had another job. kelvin and his band, Milla? really like and miss their music :( guess what? i saw sum matricians too. wat a weird coincidence.

this thing caught wani's eyes. cantik jugak he...

bfor sending haniza home, we picked up adzwan. sent haniza home, n we headed to OU. punya ah susah nak decide apa nak makan! so, we narrowed down to 2 restaurants. Kenny Roger's and Nando's. Kenny Roger's kene tunggu lama nenek baru dapat makan, while Nando's was full apart from an angry man scolding the waiters. menyesal x ambil gambar masa tu!! so, last skali, Secret Recipe la jugakkkk. ok, kasi promo sikit.

muka lahap? saya faham...

weh!! first time weh!!! first time dapat habiskan noodle in tom yam soup ni!!! da la benda tu pedas bole mati. ok, kasi tunjuk moments yang mengharukan sikit.

abis makan, pegi window shopping lagi :D we came across this mysterious creeeeeepyyyy tabung. kasi tunjuk sikit.

okayh! x nampak sangat kan? ok, kasi close-up pulak!

the little green box seemed to be suspended in the mid air, and although all of the mirror and the box seemed to occupy all of the space in the black box, we could still put in sum quarters and quarters tu x nampak pun!!! WATTT????? O_O

Friday, June 15, 2007

erm... nice breeze and great past

it rained just now. susahnya nak bangun dari tido. i set my alarm clock to 10am. kept snoozing it untill 10.30am. u know how good it feels to sleep when its raining rite? ah, the weather today can't get any better!! i luv the breeze.

keputusan kemasukan IPTA was supposed to come out today according to Bernama, but, well... it doesn't look like it. quite disappointed. everybody is in anticipation.

congrats, mel, for getting great result!! i knew u can do it. dah cakap dah, tapi u x percaya -_-

p/s: ah! onaka ga suiteimasu yo! tabe-masho ne! furai sakana ari-masu~ soreja~

おなか が すいています よ! たべましょ ね! ふらいの さかな あります~ それじゃ~

Saturday, June 9, 2007

hari ni Ahmad balik

erm... so, my little brother, Ahmad, is on his way back to Kelantan (studying there). kali ni, sedih la pulak dia pergi. i'll be spending this holiday at home alone again. kalau dia ada, seronok sikit, ada subject untuk kacau. heh heh. i'm not a very good sister. if he's home, anytime i need a companion, he'll always be there. nak angkut pegi mana-mana pun dia x kisah, but i know his favourite. movies :) memang gila movies. his PSP memory stick are almost full because of those movies yang dia suka. his birthday is drawing nearer. 15th june. i don't really know wat to give him bcause he likes pricy things like play station stuff... so, i gave him my earphones. dia nak sangat. bagi je lah. umi once told me that Ahmad used to say, "kenapa umi ngan ayah slalu pukul Kak Ira? kesian dia...". that made me cry actually. anyway, i'm not that kind of person who shows affection much. i just enjoy his presence at home. with him, i can talk about almost everything. he's my reference for religious stuff (tapi, kadang-kadang dia boleh melebih-lebih... kena jaga-jaga), but i can still talk to him about guitars, music n watever. he's my only, genius, little brother :D

Thursday, June 7, 2007

sayang sama mereka

my second blog post here!! ^_^ anyhooo, today i had a day out with mel, fana, n anith~ at last, we got to get together. i mean... it had been 2 months already since i finished my matrics n i haven't seen them?? different case with mel. i got sum pics here, but most of them are... i don't know... upside- down?? kami memang begitu.

btw, crap... i did sumthing just now, but it's not a bad thing, but it didn't feel right at that time and i got paranoid n bugged all of them until we got home. ngeee... i really had a fun time with them. fana gumbira all the time, mel jenis sentiasa sinis, n anith senang disakat dan juga suka menyakat, makes everything in a perfect balance. sumtimes, i'm just amazed with the fact that they could stand my perangai. although sumtimes they say i am 'suka buat benda merepek', 'tak boleh layan', n sum other things... they hav been sticking with me through thick n thin. sebab itu saya sayang sama mereka. anyhoooo... this time, no anith bawak kereta anymore, since AIZAT CRASHED THE CAR which made all of us pissed off instead of feeling sympathy. especially me. nooooo... takpe!! only 1month to go, n i'll get my hands on my rightful driving license. think positive!! think positive!!!

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

so here i am

ah... i had this account for quite awhile already, but haven't figured out how to use it, since i was too busy and too malas to do so. so, yeah... a new page this is. douzo yoroshiku ^_^ ~