Wednesday, January 30, 2008


i just got back from 'Malam Untukmu Palestin' event held at Nurani Hall and i have no regret on that. this post shall be about it, insya-Allah.

if i were given a chance, i'd like to show my gratitude to Dr. Hafidzi Mohd Noor who gave the 'Suara Al-Aqsa' speech. it touched me deeply inside and awaken the sleeping spirit in me. the spirit which once cried for my dear Palestinian brothers and sisters. there was this one video on a little Palestinian girl crying and shouting about something. my arabic is extremely poor, so i could only catch a few words but they are enough to make me understand her. God. Felistini. Felistini. Felistini. i wonder if she is still alive today.

do you know that the Palestine land was once a very large territory? it even extended along Jordan and some other countries that now surrounding the current Palestine. then came the British drawing borders, breaking up the lands, shrinking the former Palestine. next, came the useless United Nations @ PBB, by the UN Partition Plan, giving almost half of the Palestine to the damned Jews, but Jews are meant to be Jews. sneaky. greedy. manipulative. not a man of his word. they robbed piece by piece of Palestinian land away from the rightful owner. later, came the nobody-can-be-more-busybody-America holding an election to choose between Hamas and Fatah for the leadership of Palestinian National Authority, and Allahuakhbar, Hamas won the election and the American dog, Fatah, lost.

According to the United States National Public Radio, "Israel and many
Western powers have struggled with how best to interact with a group that is at
once labeled terrorist and, at the same time, is the legitimately elected
leadership of the Palestinian National Authority".

it's amazing how the media is manipulating our minds especially those of Muslims. i am ashamed to admit that i once thought that Hamas was a terrorist group. how stupid i was at that time, making statements that sounded right (at that time lah), without understanding the real condition. it's sad and disappointing to finally learn that even our local media is doing the same thing.

Dr. Hafidzi told us a true story...
500 top-ranked Palestinian men were chased out of their land. they survived for nearly 40 days until their food supply depleted. they were hungry and searched the land for food. then, they spotted an apricot orchard with ripe apricots. despite being very hungry, they did not reach for the fruits, but searched for the owner instead. unfortunately, they could not find him. hunger almost conquered them, and at last, they took the fruit and tied money to the branches. when the orchard owner came back, he saw money dangling from the branches instead of apricots. then, he saw the 500 men, eating the fruit. with tears flowing out of his eyes, he asked them, "who are all of you actually? you did not take the fruit although you were very hungry. please, eat all the apricots that you want. the orchard is yours".

Dr. Hafidzi asked us, is this what the media has been labelling as terrorist? Palestinian people will not pick up weapons if not because of their own land are being taken away from them.

kalau nenek moyang kita menghadapi perkara
yang sama, mereka juga pasti akan mengangkat senjata

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

s a d

i pray to Allah for the safety of Palestinians. may all that died rest in peace. may they go to heaven. i hate Jews. not Israeli, but Jews. i'm not a racist, but i have issues with the people who have been killing my brothers and sisters ruthlessly. i pray to Allah for their sufferings to end. being only able to sit here and type this post, i've never felt more helpless. it's agonizing to read news of dozens or maybe hundreds of my fellow Muslims being killed and tortured every day and able to do nothing. i hope this post will spark consciousness in those who never cared or already forgotten about our siblings at the other side of the world.

today, as usual, i did my daily walk around 'the mall' of the hospital (a place in the center of the USM hospital).

i saw an elderly couple. the husband was pushing his wife who was on a wheelchair. might be around 70-80 years old.

i saw 2 underage kids following a staff to the pharmacy center. i'm not sure where were their parents. i don't think they came with their parents.

i saw a very old man sitting near the pharmacy center. he smiled at me... although with a weak smile.

i saw a kid transferring a lot of heavy things. maybe he was supposed to deliver them to a shop nearby. it's not an easy job for him. even for me, but he did make sumthing out of himself.

i saw a family sitting on the floor outside of the ward, eating. it's good that they did not forget their relative.

"Kelantan adalah tempat orang miskin bergembira",
a friend of mine said.

i could not agree more. here, people don't look at the brand of clothes that you are wearing and judge you. they accept you the way you are, be it doctor or beggar, and for that... i am glad.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

over the line

kadang-kadang, kita terlampau emosional sehinggakan tak sedar akan kata-kata yang keluar dari mulut kita. kadang-kadang, kita terlampau marah dan pentingkan diri sendiri sehinggakan kita tak sedar akan 'body language' yang kita pamerkan dan perbuatan kita. manusia memang pentingkan diri sendiri, kan? aku pun.

anyway, things are starting to get hectic... again, with dental exam only less than 48 hours away and less than a month for medic exam. orang sekeliling pun sudah mula menunjukkan gejala-gejala 'mood swing'. nak buat macam mana... sememangnya students of medic & dentistry :P tapi, saya tetap berharap supaya sesetengah orang dapat lebih 'let their hair down'.

yesterday, kurol msged me about going to pavilion, the new so called fabulous shopping complex. he said there were many designer boutiques. well well well, another reason for little kids to spend their parents money and try to live paris hilton's life, but then, since everybody's talking about how great that place is, maybe i should try to go there once. what for sure is it will not happen in this coming 2-3 months. i will not be home for this chinese new year hols. masa untuk mengejar cita-cita! aaaa~ cita-cita yang masih jauh daripada genggaman aku! insya-Allah boleh!!!!!!

anyway, there is this group of people downstairs singing so loudly. rosak hair cells dalam telinga aku >:O mengacau mental dan physical sungguh -_-"

Sunday, January 6, 2008

bahasa melayu

well, well, well! BAHASA MALAYSIA IS COMING BACK FOR GOOD!!! tetapi, saya mengaku saya berasa risau. amat risau sekali. saya sudah lupa banyak ilmu bahasa malaysia dan saya berasa malu untuk mengakuinya.

maka, benarlah kata pensyarah bahasa malaysia saya, En. Shahrul Imran Lee Abdullah, bahawa bangsa kita bukanlah bangsa yang benar-benar berbangga dengan bahasa sendiri. malah, en. shahrul juga mengatakan, 'bahasa malaysia' itu seharusnya dijadikan 'bahasa melayu' sejajar dengan prinsip 'bahasa jiwa bangsa'. 'bahasa tamil' kerana bahasa itu asalnya daripada bangsa india. 'bahasa jepun' kerana bahasa itu asalnya daripada bangsa jepun.

ayat 'di dalam hati' adalah salah. 'hati' adalah satu perkara yang bersifat abstrak, tidak boleh disentuh, tidak boleh dilihat. maka, sepatutnya adalah 'dalam hati'. maka, benarlah juga kita sudah melakukan banyak kesilapan tatabahasa selama ini. mungkin selama ini kita sudah terbiasa bercakap, menulis, mengikut keselesaan sendiri tanpa memikirkan impaknya kepada bangsa dan diri sendiri.

kata en. shahrul, "orang yang belajar banyak bahasa adalah genius" (kalau x silap). kita harus bagus dalam pelbagai bahasa. oleh itu, kita juga harus mengaplikasikan bahasa asing seperti bahasa inggeris dan lain-lain. sambil itu, saya menanamkan hasrat dalam hati untuk lebih menghormati bahasa melayu dan menggunakan bahasa yang betul. tiada lagi 'kot' di hujung ayat. tiada lagi 'tapi' di hujung ayat. pada yang rajin bercakap bahasa melayu seperti orang putih, berbanggalah anda dengan bahasa sendiri. mengikut kata en. muhammad pula, "kalau anda mahu cakap bahasa melayu, cakap bahasa melayu dengan betul. if you want to speak in english, speak proper english" (kalau x silap).

so, back to english. i'm sleepy and... *yawn*...