Thursday, November 27, 2008

atashi no utsukushii yume ka


incik Onn dan incik Rauf, bila nak jam ha? incik Onn tak sudah cakap nak jam, tapi tak jam pun. cis cis. aku boleh mati kebosanan di sini walaupun berhasta nota tak habis baca lagi T_T Zahirah, kau memang suka belajar last minute. dari kau tadika sampai lah sekarang. seperti kata Fiza, "merakapundeng sungguh!!".



what's merakapundeng, you asked? merakapundeng originates from a Malay word, merapu. on the first look (or hear), it might seem like a Javanese word, but the truth is, it's just a nonsensical word Fiza splurts out whenever she gets mad. haha.



i'm in the middle of reading about autonomic nervous system affecting drugs. suddenly, a cartoon strip from the proudly Malaysian comic, Ujang, came to mind. it was about a group of villagers led by an imam making regular rounds during Ramadhan. then, they saw a couple of drug addicts doing their usual stuff, and tried to arrest them only to be disappointed as the drug addicts escaped gloriously, Fast and Furious style. i remember reading the, "HOH! macam pelesit depa lari!", or something of the equivalence :P but that story dates back to 4-6 years ago.



nevertheless, a question lingered in my mind as i read that cartoon... "kata orang hisap dadah tak berapa bagus consciousness dia, tapi... apasal kartun tu boleh lari dengan hebatnya?", and today, the question was answered dengan mantap sekali oleh lecture Dr. Asia Rehman ini. you know very well that i won't be satisfied with mere 'maybe's.


mana taknya... drugs such as amphitamine & etc. will eventually cause level of neurotransmitters such as epinephrine, norepinephrine, and dopamine to rise. those neurotransmitters will then bind to α1, α2, β1, β2, and β3 adrenergic receptors present in our body.


by the activation of α2, β2, and β3 receptors, high level of energy sources such as glucose are made available by activation of several process such as lipolysis, gluconeogenesis, glycogenolysis, etc.


next, β2 receptor activation also leads to increase in skeletal muscle contractility, hence, the reason the drug addicts were able to run as fast as 'pelesit'. even the delivery of nutrients and oxygen to the muscles were made faster than usual. β1 receptor activation causes the heart to pump crazily, pushing and pushing the blood to our countless cells. activation of α1 receptor (which is widely distributed in blood vessels compared to heart) leads to vasoconstriction of majority of vessels causing blood pressure (and also blood flow) to go sky high while β2 receptor activation leads to vasodilation of vascular beds, therefore increasing the surface area for exchange of nutrients, oxygen, and other substances between vessels and organs and skeletal muscle. then, the blood volume is also being expanded by increase in renin secretion. you know very well renin-angiotensin-aldosterone system leads to water and sodium retention, contributing to increase in blood volume. there, the organs and skeletal muscle are being bathed lavishly with nutrients and oxygen delivered by blood.


eh, but i didn't explain how the increase in oxygen supply were made possible, did i? β2 receptor activation also leads to bronchodilation. therefore, less turbulent air flow and less resistance. kenapa mata drug addicts kuyu? can it be because of activation of α1 receptor which leads to dilation of pupil (by contraction of pupillary muscle of the eye)? mungkin mat dadah tu rasa silau bila pupil dia jadi besar sebab cahaya lagi banyak masuk mata daripada kadar yang normal, so kena kuyukan mata? but that might also explain the reason those drug addicts can disappear so fast even in the middle of the night.


so... for all these... why abusing drugs is bad for us? easy. i told you that β1 receptor activation makes our heart beats crazily, didn't i? although the size of our heart is just slightly smaller than our clenched fist, it consumes so much of oxygen, about 20-25% of our oxygen supply if i'm not mistaken (tak berapa ingat percentage smua ni). so, when the heart gets crazy, so does it's oxygen demand. the oxygen demand will increase so high and might be one of the factors why amphetamine usage is linked to increase in heart attack incidence. not to mention that our blood pressure will go sky high. our brain has very fine blood vessels supplying it. it's not able to tolerate such ridiculously high pressure of blood, therefore, cerebral hemorrhage is one of the consequence you'll have to face if you were to abuse drugs. for guys... your 'little brother' down there will shrink due to redistribution of blood supply hahaha~ apparently, in sympathetic nervous system activation, our body behave in such way that it thinks the penis is not an important organ to be involved in 'fight & flight' situation. mestilah... takkanlah tengah takut nak kena belasah, 'little brother' boleh menolong. LOL!!!! and there are many more terrible side effects of drug abuse, so... mung nok ke... tokse ke... ikut mung la. aku ghoyak awal-awal dah. mung gelenya sangat nok try tu, try ni, rasakanlah, rasakanlah (bercakap dengan loghat Kelantan ala Siam).


okay, okay, biar aku 'be frank' je lah... aku tengah nak cuba hafal distribution and action setiap adrenergic receptor sebenarnya, haha~ bosan baca? haha, too bad, it's my blog anyway.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

you don't know everything after all

gosh, i'm extremely annoyed right now for certain reasons. sampaikan lagu2 'sakit mental' yang dah lama aku tak dengar sekarang tengah bermain di Media Player aku.

firstly, kenapa ramai suka meninggikan suara? perlukah? sukakah? do you enjoy getting yelled at? selangkah keluar dari kepompong kau, laju sahaja setiap tutur kata dan adabmu berubah. begitu indah sekali melihat perubahan si hipokrit apabila berada di khalayak ramai.

kenapa harus melatah tanpa selidik? "Kita harus mempunyai 'type A personality'", kata orang. adakah kau sedang cuba menyatakan bahawa kita tidak perlu bersabar dan hanya fikir 'aku aku aku aku aku aku'? sudahlah... inikah komuniti bijak pandai yang dijaja namanya selama ini? i'm not impressed.

indahnya tangan menaip manakala mulut bertubi-tubi mengeluarkan hujah-hujah tentang politik dalam pelbagai segi; baik hidup, universiti, mahupun negara. tidakkah kita sedar bahawa kita hanya cuba merawat 'symptoms'nya sahaja? bagaimana pula dengan punca sebenar suatu masalah itu? hodohnya 'attitude' yang kita megah-megahkan ini.

kenapa perlu riak dan takbur? itu bukanlah hak kita. kau bukanlah Pencipta kita. lagi pedih apabila seseorang itu riak atas hak orang lain. pedih? atau patut aku katakan... kelakar? apakah hidup kau bertujuan untuk menarik perhatian orang lain semata-mata? the world doesn't revolve around you no matter what you do, geddit?

kenapa suka mendesak? keperluan kau seorang sahaja yang pentingkah? tak sedarkah kau tanpa orang lain, kau tak mungkin boleh berfungsi dengan baik. we support each other. EACH OTHER, mind you.

ya, kita menuju ke arah masyarakat terdidik. bagaimanakah kita boleh mendidik diri dengan baik kalau dengan sedikit sahaja ilmu pun kita dah terasa sangat agung? apabila ada yang menegur, melatah pula.

dan... apa dah jadi dengan masyarakat sekarang? seronok sungguh membuka pekung satu sama lain. mengumpat. menceritakan keburukan seseorang itu depan tuan punya diri sendiri. is that your idea of joking?

secara terus terang... aku tak fikir kita layak mendapat 'freedom of speech'. lihat sahajalah surat akhbar dan majalah. ah, tak perlu kau cari jauh-jauh. cari sahajalah dalam Internet. cakapkan secara jujur... adakah kita menggunakan hak itu dengan betul?

sekarang aku faham kenapa negara kita berada dalam keadaan ini. aku kecewa melihat penyakit yang tak terkira dalam diri kita semua. aku mahu berubah, dan aku seru yang lain melakukan perkara yang sama.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

selamat hari jadi :)


selamat hari jadi, Norhafizah

a friend in need is a friend indeed. that describes her very well. i could not ask for a kinder person at heart as a friend.


cerita malam semalam yang mengejutkan aku seorang


Fiza, Jijah, and i were driving our way to Muhibbah Cake House to buy cake. suddenly, Twilight Chapter Seven by Jay Chou played on my handphone. ahh, it's Umi. i answered happily until Umi started to talk with hesitation. when Umi does that, it's always about something that would sadden me. "Kalau Umi bagi Danish dekat Mak Cik Zu boleh?", Umi said.................................................. i lost control of my temper and started to splurt out emotional words and pleaded Umi to keep Danish. before the conversation ended, i surrendered as soon as i got a grip on myself again. jangan sampai aku jadi anak derhaka. as the phone went engaged, my tears trickled down. loh, cengengnya anak ini! i told myself, "No... not this time... i couldn't give him away". i'm already regretting giving my oldest hamster, Mikay, to one of Wani's friends and i couldn't give Danish up. not this time, but there's always a line drawn between a child and her parents. i can't cross the line. i can only pray to God.


a few minutes passed, and again, the handphone rang. again, Umi's picture was displayed on the screen. "Hello, Assalaamu'alaikum", my voice sounded inevitably disappointed. to my surprise, Umi said, "Umi tak jadi bagilah". i was happy, d'uh, but worried in the same time. was it because i slightly raised my voice? i apologised again and again to Umi. i sent her a message after we both hung up, again, apologising. i couldn't bear the thought of being an 'anak derhaka'. i refused to repeat my past. then, Umi's message came in:

"Apology accepted"

again, my tears dropped. terima kasih, Umi dan Ayah.


what's the big deal about a rabbit, you may ask. cendawan kememe gila sebab binatang pun macam tu. firstly, i get easily attached to animals compared to human. yes, i don't get to spend much time with my family, but it's okay because i still have Danish to greet me everytime i come home. i've been too attached to this one pet i have. i kept him since he was a baby and attended to him everytime he got ill and yeah, he gets easily infected. had to brush his fur once a week and cut his nails once a month. let him loose on the ground once a week. don't give him too much of pellets or he'll get obese easily. don't overload him with vitamins or he'll get toxicity. don't let him out more than 40minutes or he'll pee everywhere... and he poops A LOT! he loves to dig anything that's soft. he's not very tame. i don't think rabbits can be tamed as well as cats or dogs can. i'm still mourning Mikay's departure till today although i might not seem so. i still use his name in several occasions. blah! you won't understand if you're not much of an animal-lover. and i'm already too sick of giving away my pets. i've been like a factory that breeds animal and gives them away for free to people who i'm not even sure whether they are capable of taking care of the pets well. so, you can easily understand. this is my weakness point.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

along aku yang satu

there's one family member whose photo i don't have many. that person is my elder brother, Along, who's also the eldest among us, 4 siblings. 'legend' says that he lost a huge amount of fat he once had (konon, hahah). Ahmad was ecstatic about it, while Wani was worried about it. being a person who studies medicine, i'm worried about it too -_-". 1/2 of his initial weight, mind you! so, i sent an sms to Along, just to check him out:

"Salam. Along, apa khabar? Dgr kata Along da kurus. Kekeke!"

a few minutes passed and an sms came :

"Alhamdulillah baik. Nak tau balik le. Mcm mn study?"

chet! soalan klasik tu lagi. nevertheless, i feel relieved to hear from him. Along's taking care of me well. yeah, he's trying his best to protect these little parasites clinging to him since childhood, but he doesn't, or shall i say wouldn't show this kind side of him. he wouldn't say or message you, "i love you" or anything of its equivalence. this brother of mine will most probably transfer lots of money to Umi's account and ask Umi to use it for purposes such as paying for my car -_-" it's not as if Umi would keep it as a secret, haha. i'm not sure i should call it silly or purely sincerity. the latter describes him best, i guess. i hope Along is okay.

p/s: wa akan potong lu balik nanti, Along! hoho~

Friday, November 21, 2008

hols hols hols not holes

i woke up relatively earlier today :)

ransacking through my 'My Pictures' folder, i found a few pictures i took from Wani's facebook quite some time ago.


there... Wani, doing... doing... doing... uhm... i don't know. Along, pushing my preambulator while biting a biscuit, and hairless Ms. Egghead trying to walk to God-knows-where. zaman kegemilangan baju hotdog tuuu!




there, Wani, giving her best shot (hoho) and a-little-bit-haired Ms. Egghead with a new person welcomed to the family, Ahmad. haaa, zaman kegemilangan baju hotdog kali ni dengan fabrik denim dan subang diperbuat daripada pelekat warna-warni. was Wani holding the stickers???

old pictures are so nice to look at especially when you can't recall taking those pictures at all. gahhh. dah lama sungguh tak main rollerblade. dah lama tak panjat pokok. dah lama x buat sommersault dkat buaian. dah lama tak kena rotan. ahaaaa~ i wonder how others' childhood are like...

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

officially a nerd

before i forget, yesterday................

I PALPATED THE LOWER EDGE OF LIVER of a patient!!!!!

praises to God for granting me such precious experience, Alhamdulillah... i can still recall the feeling of his liver. it felt like a soft solid with diagonal surface slowly resting on the edge of my hand as the patient inhaled deeply. i could feel the depth changes on the surface of the organ. then, as the patient exhaled and the liver bade goodbye, i could almost swear my heart stopped for awhile before it started to beat madly and i went euphoria. what exaggeration!... and he was not my first subject. after many subjects, finally, i got my first experience of palpating the liver. after doing a complete physical examination on him and before leaving the ward, i wished him Assalaamu'alaikum, honestly meaning it. honestly wishing he would recover from his ischaemic heart disease. insya Allah.


so, i'm thinking of buying a pair of hamsters. i can't remember not being attached to any animal at any time of my life. be it the stray cat, fish that pooped a lot, rabbit that doesn't run much, hamster, persian cat that is being threatened by obesity, etc. however, i'm having doubts about this. i'm worried that the history might repeat itself. i used to have a couple of hamsters as pets. within several months, they bred and bred until the number totalled up to nearly 30 and Umi and i had difficulty with managing them (although i had no problem with remembering the name of each of them). i remember having almost 6 large cages. siap ada satu minicity warna-warni untuk diorang tuuu... hm... patut bela ke tak ah? kang busuk pula bilik. bilik sekarang ni pun tak terjaga sangat. cadar sendiri pun tukar 3 minggu sekali. bedding hamster dah la kena tukar paling kurang 2 minggu sekali. sat lagi terlepas nate tu, punoh nota2 aku... and i already have enough difficulty to focus on my studies right now -_-"

Rabbitku, Danish, kau apa khabar? Ayah kata kau makin gumuk.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

before 12.00am strikes

... one big fat





happy burfday to Melissa Ong Ren Ming



... a belated one, i mean :P

yesterday, MedDen friends and i celebrated her birthday with having steamboat! nothing special you say...? steamboat hasil tangan Ah Beh and Adrian ^_^ the rest played their 'tukang campak makanan dalam steamboat' role very well. sankyu for the great party, all of you :) especially to Alex, Voon Lip, and Ah Loong for teaching me 'cara pakai chopsticks zaman kuno'. never knew such method existed.


seriously... i think i'm getting lazier and lazier by day -_-" i used to change my bedsheet once a fortnight... now it's once every 3 weeks. eeek! and i still can't figure out how one could survive sleeping on the same bedsheet for months. i'm missing lectures more frequent than ever and there is no way i'm proud of it :( i find Fixed Learning Module (FLM) sessions to worsen by time (only God knows how sad the cards look like. hidup Apex university!!!......... yeah right). Zahirah, kuatkan semangat!


truth is... last fortnight, an incident happened, wounding my spirit till today. one incident that i am not willing to share here. "the way i know you... you're not the kind yang senang patah semangat kan?", recalling back what Umi said to me when i called her tearfully. yes, i'm the most rebellious child among four. feel free to ask my siblings. "dah, jangan sedih-sedih. Ayah akan doakan Ira, Insya Allah... Ayah sentiasa doakan awak... don't blame yourself... Allah boleh mengubah hati hambaNya. minta tolong dari Allah", Ayah said. Ayah told me not to blame myself too much for things that happened. he knows too well that i always tend to save others' neck before i rescue mine. sadly, many find that as 'cuba berlagak hero' instead of 'cuba menolong'. after all, it's your parents who know you best. tapi... keadaan tetap sama... fibrosis di hati kecilku sudah berlaku. it is here to stay.


siot ja. cengengnya ngga tanggung loh gw iki >:O


oh yeah, Hannah tagged me for this one survey. this is my reply, babe!


Here's seven things that you might not seen coming
:

- i find cooking very enjoyable. makes up the very reason of my addiction for Jamie Oliver... and hey, i applied for Culinary Arts course, but my application was hampered of course.

- sewing is fun too. i might be the only person in the house to utilize the small family sewing machine.

- LIPAS! AAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! i'm big. ironically, my enemy since childhood are... roaches yang kecil macam kuman. yang berkepak tu lagi ada previledge

- i like classical songs apart from 'lagu halau binatang bawah rumah' (as Ayah describes heavy songs). especially those that involve elaborate guitar plucking, hence explaining the reason i don't play much of rock songs on guitar. besides... lagu klasik lah baru challenging (rock kapak memang payah juga).

- gastrousus (XD) sensitif, kulit sensitif, 'taste bud' sensitif, begitu juga hati kecil aku. aku kaya dengan T cell kau tau?

- aku sayang keluarga aku T_T my response might not be the same if you ask during my pre-SPM days

- i prefer to befriend soft spoken people despite myself being one that is of total opposite :P

Alrighty, i'll tag these 7 people:

1. Tra
2. Mel
3. Faza
4. Onn Azli
5. Andi Rauf
6. Hazwan
7. Syed Zahid
sila buat soalan ni ya, cik- cik dan incik- incik sekalian -_-

Thursday, November 13, 2008

siapa kita?

i'm not sure... in what kind of world i'm currently living in -_-" aku tahu apa yang bakal aku tulis akan menyakitkan hati yang lain, tapi tiada guna aku pendamnya lagi.


Program Based Learning (PBL) program is certainly not a new thing for MedDen (medic + dental) students of USM and is regarded as one of the prides of this Apex university. so much for a 'pride'... i personally find it failing among dental students... or maybe among medic students too (based on complaints from fellow medical counterparts)?




Chief complaint 1 : Lack of participation from group members


i'm sure those who are relatively less ignorant are well aware of this. what's the aetiological factor?
-some answered, "tak confident". such excuse is acceptable for the first few weeks. my apologies, but it's getting more and more obsolete by time. where did all the confidence during 'tea-time' talks go? and sitting there in a corner, biting your nails, showing fearful face ain't cute at all :P who knows those things lingering in your mind might help? just splurt it out. it's okay.
-but then, some answered, "tak sempat belajar. tak tahu nak cakap apa". honest, but selfish. that's very unfair towards other members who might have other things in hand as well and worked their arse off to study first at least for an hour.
-aku pandai, orang lain tak perlu pandai sama. that speaks for itself.
-the worst - not listening, not acting like listening, having their own discussion. what exactly necessitates such act? nak nampak pandai macam orang lain tak 'competent enough' untuk berbincang sama-sama dengan kumpulan kecil anda?




Chief complaint 2 : Cakap hanya untuk bercakap
that statement sounds so wrong from grammar's point of view. the message i was trying to convey is actually... answering questions with non-concrete facts and is usually composed of almost nothing. apa sebabnya?
-aku pandai, aku tahu... tapi sebenarnya aku tak tahu. i wish some would think twice before blurting out senseless things. i appreciate attempts (most of them helps a lot in solving a problem or learning issue), but i wouldn't welcome, "uhm... aku rasa... ahhhh... hm... tak tahu lah. kau rasa apa ah?". what a weird habit.



Chief complaint 3 : Internet adalah segala-galanya

wikipedia is great, but sometimes are written by laymen. guess what? i did some articles on wikipedia too. always use it as last resort or in accidents & emergency cases only. never substitute textbooks with internet. that might be among the worst things for a learning person to do - to always find a shortcut. if you want to take the articles seriously, make sure the author has at least medical degree (MD) or other more credible titles written at the end of his/her name such as in medical journals. http://www.emedicine.com/ makes a good place to start with.



Summary

regardless of how intelligent we are... we are still students. we assist one and another. after all... we do live in a community. it is never my intention to purposely 'berlagak pandai' by writing this post. i, just like the rest of you, am also a learning person. i need you to assist me through this tornful path... and for that, i shall assist you too. most importantly, may Allah bless us and guide us. insya Allah...

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

silly

i'm sure i'm being silly for this, but for once... let me keep some things to myself. although it seems so far away, but, i guess it's okay to just stay like this. i know i don't deserve to get what i've gotten till this second (but i'm sure God knows best)... what more if i ask for something else?

i see life as made up of several different compartments where doors exist between adjacent compartments. i'm ready to run wild in all of the small rooms and cross the borders except for one... and in that very compartment, i'll always try to sit still in my comfort zone, peering through the wide opened doors, but not daring to cross the line. for that, i'll repeat what i stated earlier... "i guess it's okay to just stay like this".

Monday, November 10, 2008

GIGI PALSU DAH SIAP!!!!!!!!


Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Astaghfirullah!!!!! gumbiranya saya gigi palsu yang sepasang ni sudah siap~ sehinggakan rasa gumbira itu berjaya bertahan walaupun beberapa insiden yang relatifnya menyedihkan telah terjadi iaitu:
  • buat tampalan gigi molar kedua sebanyak 3kali
  • tukar mata handpiece jenis diamond fissure bur 3kali
  • buat lubang pada gigi molar kedua dengan ganas sekali (maximum speed, maximum pressure) sampai gigi hangus hitam dan mengeluarkan bau hangit dan mata handpiece juga patah
  • buat lubang yang terlampau dalam pada gigi molar pertama sehingga terus tertembus, hancur gigi
  • digelakkan DSA En. Daus yang chumil (muka langsung tak mencerminkan umur) dan mempunyai mata seperti kucing sambil dia berulang-ulang kali cakap, "Z, awak ni memang selalu lain daripada yang lain... hahahha...", merujuk kepada insiden-insiden di atas serta yang telah berlaku pada hari-hari yang sebelumnya.

sampai ke hari ini, aku masih lagi berpegang pada kata-kata Dr. Zuryati iaitu buatlah salah berkali-kali walaupun kena marah ke apa ke, sementara kita masih dalam latihan ni. perkara yang penting ialah kita belajar daripada kesilapan dan dapat 'treat patient' dengan 'excellent' sekali... macam... hello... assessment aku hampir tak pernah score lebih dari 60%. dah spotted kelemahan, barulah try ubah. tetapi... bila agaknya aku boleh jadi seorang yang menepati masa?

p/s: kemudian baru letak gambar Incik Gigi Palsu Hasil Tangan Cik Z oke?

Sunday, November 9, 2008

vena sesak??

hands and mind are very tired right now after a long prosthodontic class with my dental technologist, Kak Fiza, whom i already regard as my elder sister (after she gloriously digged on my past :P). that reminds me of an incident that happened 4 days ago. after almost 6 hours of non-stop prosthodontic class, i took a look on my hands and i saw... BLUISH & PALE WHITE HANDS!!!! and my nail beds were PURPLE!!! my veins even appeared as if they were extremely dilated and so near to the skin surface that i could see almost every branch of it. like a tree with countless branches. i could even see the veins supplying each of my finger very clearly! comparing the size of my veins at that time to their current state... it's safe to say that they were dilated to almost 2X the current size. i hope nothing is wrong with my hands -_-"

Saturday, November 8, 2008

um ah all-rounder wannabe

someone noticed me sewing... and my handwork made them somehow shocked... i'm not sure how i should be feeling now... -_-"


i have been an all-rounder wannabe since i started to gain the ability to remember. terima kasih Ayah (and God too for all that happened) for opening my eyes and made me see and learn so many things despite my relentless retaliation. he taught me to repair things, do some wirings here and there, cook this and that, cut this and that, taught so many techniques, concepts, and principles that i have been holding on till this day. i have the best father i could ever wish for. the last project i did with Ayah was repairing Wani's bed after i successfully crushed her bed during Raya hols LOL (dan aku baru aja hilang beberapa kilogram masa tu. cis! katil takde kualiti!!).


i miss those balik kampung times when he would shoot me with so many questions especially those that require calculations and creative thinking to solve them. i still remember the time when he bought a game for a 3rd grade student when i just finished my kindergarten. being a game freak, i worked my ass off to complete the game... and i did. to summarize these two paragraphs... i'd say... i miss Ayah :'( and i wonder... if guys nowadays have such qualities :P



ok, next!






aku suka yong tau fu di pasar Jumaat, depan USM ^_^ bukan yang ada di entrance pasar okay. masuk dalam sikit ja, lepas tu, pusing kiri. silalah cuba :D aku suka juga ABC special makcik yang hujung pasar tu, tapi, semalam, ABC dia manis sampai boleh potong kaki. untuk menyelesaikan masalah tersebut, kita boleh beli air mineral di kedai berhampiran dan campurkan ke dalam ABD tersebut. ingatlah. minumlah 2.5-3 liter air/hari untuk menjamin kecergasan minda dan badan :D

Thursday, November 6, 2008

tiba-tiba... terbaca nama mek ni bawah ruangan 'bloggers'. Farhanah binti Zulkefle, bila mau jumpa lu lagi? selepas berapa banyak get-togethers, still mek ni kekal menyepi T_T





p/s: if only you read this... :(
p/s 2: 3.26pm, 12th November 2008 : she commented on this post :D

Sunday, November 2, 2008

peace at heart -_-

yesterday, i received a call from my elder sister, Wani. truth to be told, aku agak terkejut, jarang-jarang sekali adik-beradik call... and truth to be told also, i was touched. it came at a time when i needed it the most. the time when i could not pour out my problems to the person i'm closest to. the time when i could not seem to find the solution to my problems - a situation i'm rarely in. terima kasih, Wani.

i also received a call from my eldest brother, Along. he's not good with words, but everytime he tries to weave all of his thoughts into sentences, my lacrimal and accesory glands would get into action and produce secretion that is made of serous fluid, immunoglobins, and several enzymes; one that is called 'tear' in laymen term.

and for all of that, once again, i feel extremely blessed. Alhamdulillah...

i know very well that i havn't been a very good younger sister to Along and Wani, nor have i been a good elder sister to Ahmad. and for that, i apologize. maaf T_T