Monday, January 25, 2010

ketika susah hati

"Those who spend (in Allah's Cause) in prosperity and in adversity , who repress anger , and who pardon men; verily, Allah loves Al-Muhsinun (the good-doers). (Al-'Imran : 134)"

Yesterday, my heart was filled with so many negative emotions. It actually built up a few days ago and Alhamdulillah, I shed a part of them as I spent my day with Ayah and Ahmad the day before yesterday. MasyaAllah, reading these few sentences, extracted and translated from the Quran is enough to calm my heart till this second.


"Dan mereka (golongan munafik) berkata: (Kami) taat, kemudian apabila mereka keluar dari majlismu, segolongan dari mereka memutuskan pada malam hari satu rancangan yang lain daripada (pengakuan taat) yang mereka katakan (kepadamu). Sedang Allah (perintahkan malaikat) menulis apa yang mereka rancangkan itu; maka berpalinglah (wahai Muhammad) daripada mereka, (janganlah dihiraukan apa yang mereka rancangkan), serta berserahlah kepada Allah; kerana cukuplah Allah menjadi Pembela (yang memeliharamu dari angkara mereka). (An-Nisa' : 81)"


The "... kerana cukuplah Allah menjadi Pembela (yang memeliharamu dari angkara mereka)" got me crying worse than a baby last evening. If you read An-Nisa' more, you'll find a few repeatitions of this sentence... and yet, quite a number of us resorted for amulets and other entities -_-" As much as I'd like to appear strong, MDD had my mental strength shaken so badly that I became CHENGENG! Ah, bukalah kamus Jawa/Indo sendiri. I easily forgive, but I hardly forget unpleasant events, and I am somehow sensitive which makes me very vulnerable, yakkkkk, now THAT!! Coming from me! Haha. Recalling this too, "Everything is gonna be alright. Be strong, believe", by Yellowcard in their Believe song.


Umurku sudah mencecah 21 tahun. Kematanganku... sepatutnya sudah bertambah juga. Oleh itu, aku sedang cuba SEDAYA UPAYA bersikap sematang yang mungkin, dan mungkin kau juga patut mencuba begitu. Kerana, "Action speaks louder than words", dan "Your body speaks your mind", aku taklah begitu buta dan tuli. Lakukan kebaikan demi Allah dan bukan untuk menggembirakan orang lain semata-mata. InsyaAllah kau akan dapat kepuasan yang lebih nyata.

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