This reminds me of a conversation I had with Mellie Jelly.
"Mel, I'm somehow jealoused of you guys"
"How can you guys like a person?"
"Why can't I do that too? Not since matriculation?"
I push people away, but I just don't know why. I can't think of anyone in specific for me to lean on whenever I'm at crossroads or dwelt in problems (apart from my close girlfriends). When one rises his hand above me, "He's about to hit me. Imma dead meat", that's all I can think of and just freak out later. Jatuh cinta dengan Mikael, gitar elektrikku itu sahajalah :P