Just because you're being courted by a person, doesn't mean you should give your all to that person. Your virginity, regardless whether you're a man or a lady, is so sacred, take care of it well. Just because you're being granted the freedom to lead your life in your own way, doesn't mean you should be so eager and try every single thing and cross every line the syari'ah has drawn for us. Just because you're covered here and there, doesn't mean you can conceal every single secret you keep. Remember, our Creator is watching our every move, intention, and word all the time. Humans are merely a facade.
And to you, friend... you have disappointed me so badly, you can't imagine how angry I am right now. May Allah lead you back to the right path. Amin.