Sunday, October 31, 2010

the very packed and eventful week, victory of Kelantan, monsoon season, and fever

So this very eventful week is about to pass in just a few hours time. A really memorable one indeed :)

The first one will be about Regional (Asia) Biomaterial Scientific Meeting 2010 (RBSM) in conjunction with 8th Student Scientific Conference (SSC). Frankly, my heart felt as if it was about to burst when my phase coordinator, Dr Wan Zaripah Wan Bakar, said to me three days before the event itself, "EH! You're not hosting for SSC! You're hosting for RBSM you tahu tak? SSC is considered as a part of this RBSM", because during previous briefing, they told me I would be the emcee for SSC only. From the original script my emcee partner, Yenyen, and I prepared, I honestly think only 30% of it was retained in the end. It was changed so many times with last minute changes, and I thought we would collapse in front of the crowd when there were so many glitches during the event. The Dean, Assoc. Prof. Dr. Hj. Abdul Rashid Hj. Ismail, was so very kind to back us up as we mistakenly announced the VIP who was supposed to give the closing speech (there were incongruence between the event schedule we received and the programme book he received). Nevertheless, when the chairperson of RBSM2010, Prof. Ismail Abdul Rahman came to see us and said, "You did a good job" and, "Saya sayang sangat diorang berdua ni, penyelamat keadaan", we couldn't help but to smile as we were exiting Grand Riverview Hotel. Thank you, Dean, Prof. Ismail, Dr Noorliza Mastura (head of Protocol committee, also phase II coordinator), Dr Wan Zaripah, Cik Suhaila (secretariat), TAVA staffs, Yenyen (for being such a helpful and cooperative emcee partner, and everyone else who was involved.

p/s: We were in frenzy when the Dean kissed Dr Noorliza's (his wife) forehead as she went on the stage to receive an award together with her mentee. Dr Noorliza's blushed so badly! :) And I blushed too when the head of RBSM judges, Assoc. Prof. Dr. Azizah Yusoff said, "Thank you, Z", as she was about to present a report on RBSM on stage. Segan bila peserta RBSM dan SSC tergelak.

Then come the next event which was held on the same day - Dental Intervarsity Sports night. I was told by Iqbal - the person in-charge of performance for this event, that I had to perform six days before the event itself and I'm already handful with my endodontic project as well as RBSM. By the time I found out about it, I was still struggling with my five teeth to finish. Nonetheless, Alhamdulillah, this time, I had great and hard-working people to work with. Apart from my band, there was second year band performing too and I was amazed with their talent. Truth to be told, I was searching for new talents to pass any offer to perform to. So I was searching among health sciences and medical students, and hey, they turned out to be hidden among dental students ourselves! Yay! So I borrowed the cellist (Sarah) and drummer (Mike), both very talented and committed, and together with Hazwan, Anam, and Yiying, we performed Pergi by Aizat, Lucky by Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Caillat, and Bila Cinta by Gio and it went fine :) The line-up for second year band was a vocalist (I didn't get her name T_T), Asyraf (rhythm guitarist), Ziyad (rhythm guitarist), Sarah (cellist), Syafiq (keyboardist), and Mike (drummer). Thank you, everyone :)

p/s: Do you believe me if I say I had a laptop by my side while I was performing? Haha, yes, I did and thanks, Anam, for informing the crowd my reasons beforehand. Saved me the embarrassment. And Dr. Ramizu Shaari (oral maxillofacial surgeon of my dental school) and Dr. Zaihan (deputy dean of academic for the school) were pointing at me, perhaps because I used a laptop T_T Uhhh, malu gua.

And just yesterday, Kelantan won Piala Malaysia (Malaysian Cup) for the very first time since it was held in 1921. Congratulations, Kelantan! And yayyy, the state government granted us all 'cuti peristiwa' for today (although Tok Guru Nik Aziz made a press statement that no holiday shall be granted even if Kelantan wins but a bonus will be given).

I am so relieved to find out that today is a holiday since right before yesterday's performance, my body temperature spiked. Truth is, I was expecting it. Especially now that musim tengkujuh (monsoon season) is here, it rains everyday and is quite cold all along Eastern Coast. For three weeks in a row, I slept at an average of 3-4 hours so that I can finish all my work in time. And for this week, whenever I finish with my dental work, I had to go for either band practice or RBSM rehearsal, every single day. Sambil ke hulu ke hilir angkat Mr Mikael dan Mr Frontman sebab saya tak bawa Mr. Gitaku ke Kelate. Finally I had a good ten hours of sleep yesterday :) Couldn't even recall my dream, Alhamdulillah.

Starting from tomorrow, we'll be entering dental clinic almost every day (and ward rounds for oral surgery posting) for specialty posting. May everything go as smoothly as possible, insya Allah.

Monday, October 25, 2010

charge on!

Selamat hari jadi, Wani :)

Love you lots, babe. May your marriage be showered with blessings and happiness. Semoga makin chun dan makin chun! Love, from KELATE WHAAHHAA.

Okie, lemme see... what do I have this week:
1. Learn Lucky by Jason Mraz featuring Colbie Caillat on the guitar.
2. Prepare emcee script for Student Scientific Conference which will be held this Saturday.
3. Perform three songs with Anam, Yiying, and Hazwan this Saturday night.
4. Finish my 21, 24, and 36 teeth for endodontics class by this week.
5. Study for next week's clinical session (specialty postings).
6. Study for radiology, surgery, general medicine, and paediatrics MCQ.
7. Emcee the event.

And again, I hope I hope I hope everything will go smoothly. Insya Allah.


I was on my way to Kafe Murni when I bumped into Iqbal who suddenly said, "Eh, Sabtu ni confirmkan?". ??? What on earth, I said to myself. It turned out that I have to perform this Saturday!!!! HWARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! And I did agree when he asked me regarding this last TWO MONTHS! Hope things will go well :)

Sunday, October 24, 2010

You know what you know what you know what? I am so in love with dentistry even if it's underrated, tough, tedious, or yaddah yaddah yaddah :D

Friday, October 22, 2010


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That's according to Ultimate-Guitar :D
20/10/2008[ u! ]
Thank you, people! :D

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

oh noes

My roommate, Pang Khyun Lee, is having sore throat right now. So she's asleep. I slept excessively yesterday. I rarely sleep at other times except at night, and yet yesterday, I took naps in the afternoon and early evening. My forehead feels very warm. So it's fever fiesta this time. It's blazing hot in noon and it gets very cold during night. It feels like I'm living in Sahara. No wonder everyone's falling ill. Even a postgraduate student who was in the same x-ray room as I was was having runny nose. Respiratory tract infection fiesta, everybody, let us all bathe in mucus flood weeeee~

I need to polish Mr Mikael this weekend. Too many dirts off a few people's hands stuck on him. My previous hunt for microfibre cloth ended with zero result. Aiyo.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010


I just found out that... oral surgery block is only 12 days away! Yayyyy! And anyway, I was wrong. There WILL be a number of ward rounds left for this year. As far as I know, we need to do ward rounds during oral surgery block. But before that, we'll have to go through biomaterial (currently) and endodontics block.

Had a class with Dr Noor Hayati Abd Razak today on Application of Bone Graft and Material-Tissue Interface. I'm not sure whether it's because she saw me drinking my Nescafe beng (iced Nescafe in Kelantanese ascent :P) during her lecture or what, but she pointed to me when she was asking the reason an ideal bone graft should not be absorbed easily. "What's your name?", she asked. "Yes, Dr? Zahirah". Then she said, "Ah ha, Zahirah, yes, yes I know you", and I freaked out. I couldn't remember joining her class before, but the fact that she became warmer after that, I was relieved. That couldn't be a bad thing... but still, I am intrigued. They said she was one of the examiners during OSCE exam when we were in third year. But my examiner was Dr Abdullah Pohchi (O_o) Think positive, Zahirah :)

I need to cash out a lot of money this week for three textbooks - Intro to Orthodontics by Laura Mitchell, Handbook of Paediatric Dentistry, Endodontics in Practice by Paul V Abbott, and Carranza's Clinical Periodontology. Whoa... whole lot of money, man.

Monday, October 18, 2010

have fun ^_^

Oh, some people just can't let go of the past. Child's play is so boring, it's like reliving highschool life and I don't think that's favourable, well as long as you know God's with you, you know He'll execute his punishments to every single soul. And you know... you can never run from it. Hee hee. And neither can I ;)

Have fun reading this, dear ;D

Tahukah kamu apa keindahan dianiaya? Dari Muadz bin Jabal RA bahawasanya Rasulullah SAW bersabda,

“Ertinya : Takutlah kepada doa orang-orang yang teraniaya, sebab tidak ada hijab antaranya dengan Allah (untuk mengabulkan)”- Sahih Muslim.

Dan kau telah memberiku peluang untuk menghantar doa-doaku dengan hati yang lebih lega. Terima kasih :)

Anyway, today I went to En Rosli's office to check my marks for previous case write-ups. Thank you, Allah :')


The only tone deaf person in the family, looooots of laugh! And he's getting vainer oh :D Well, I miss you, lil genius brother. No more sucking his money out to buy me movie tickets and popcorns in these six years to come. I'll have to wait till next raya to see him.

Ah ha, here's the legendary Dato' Dr Rosemi Salleh - the person who had taught us all so much in such a short time. And the rest are my group members :) You mess up with one of us, and you get all of us messing you up in return ;D We had gone through fights, happy and sad times, so many things together, and yet, here we are, still standing so strong... even against Dato's hilarious but cynical words :D I was unwell yesterday and I couldn't walk upright. So I decided to go to surau and lie there for awhile. Three of them called me. One of them asked me to go back to the hostel and get a good rest. Another one asked me whether I have woken up from sleep. Perhaps she thought I haven't came yet, and when she found out I wasn't feeling well and couldn't sit on a chair without slouching, she too asked me to get a rest. And when Prof. Ismail came to the lecture hall I received messages from them. Thank you, guys :)

Anyway, yesterday, Yiying taught me how to read a music manuscript while we were waiting for our turn to observe ceramic crown sinistering. It turned out that... it's not that complicated. Well there are a few incomprehensible rules, but yeah, it's alright.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

closer to me

Ayah called me today and that's very rare of him. I was wishing these few days he'd call me because my handphone credit had been going down the drain faster than Niagra Falls and he did :) Thank you, Allah. Ayah said to me that I know myself better and there's no use dealing with impossible people, without me complaining to him. He obviously know me better than everyone else. He said that I have been doing well so far and I should know better that I can do better. Again he said that Allah is the one who creates human and He alone has the ultimate power to change one's heart. Ayah asked me to send prayers for the good of others rather than condemning them or troubling my heart with unnecessary problems. This is the beauty of my MDD experience - Ayah and Umi are now more understanding than they were before. Ayah assured me that he knows how hard I've tried, that I don't need to tell him, that he can see it on his own. Umi said she misses me and said sorry for not coming to Kelantan for quite some time, although it had only been a month or so since she last came here. I miss having breakfast with them at Renaissance, when I stack my plate with so many food and they're sitting there, eating so little. But it's buffet! And I had ward rounds to attend after that. Speaking of which... I found club suites in Renaissance to be of terrible quality, considering that it used to be a five star hotel. No wonder they lost one :P I wish they'd revamp their rooms soon.

Well anyhoo, Ayah is planning to go to Aus to visit Wani next year and he asked me whether I want to come along, but, but, father... I don't have a holiday during that time T_T But it's okay, I'll work hard now and insya Allah, I'll get to go for vacations later :)

Speaking of which... I suddenly remember that I have a script to prepare for an event - Regional Biomaterial Scientific Meeting 2010 in conjunction with 8th Students Scientific Conference in Grand Riverview Hotel. I have heard a lot about this event since I was in first year, but... I haven't done an extensive research yet, only read about it a little since the tasks were distributed only a few days ago and life was busy before. So it's only a fortnight away, and hopefully all of us will do our best, well at least currently, we're all positively pumped up, especially since experts from Asian countries such as United Arab Emirates, Brunei, Japan, Singapore, Indonesia, and etc. shall attend the event. And gosh... this is only my second time of emceeing an event, I was quite puzzled when they appointed me. May Allah assist me in this. Amin.
I love my support system ^_^ Alhamdulillah for having them :)

When you're on the right path, you know Allah is with you. And when you know Allah is with you, you know that nothing is impossible now. Have faith!

So today, our dental block starts! No more going for ward rounds this year, I guess :D It's time to start focusing on learning these stuff which shall become our bread and butter soon :) Next week, I'm quite torn at choosing which patient to treat. Will have to decide by end of this week. Ohhh, guilty guilty guilty feeling.

tee hee, they're being played around :)

Oh, I just can't keep my fingers off these people, it feels so fun to play them around ^_^ You post a few words, and their reaction will as currently. You do a few things to them, and they'll amplify their reaction. But as Yiying said, "Pity them".

Saturday, October 16, 2010

with age comes the wisdom

The truth usually hurts more than we hope it'd be. But you know, as ironic as it may sound, the honest one is usually the more reliable one. Although the smooth talker feels better to have a friend... until you finally see the whole picture. Oh well, as usual, if actions and words can't do any good, we can only disagree with whatever that's happening. And although despicable words may float around, you know you always have trustworthy friends by your side. This is the reason one should never be a snob and befriend as many people as one can. Because to find an unpolished diamond among the shattered pieces of glass, it requires a lot of effort and patience, but it's worth your sacrifice. In the mean time, there's no use regretting over what's been done because I now know that I have opened myself up for so much more wonders and amazing things life has for me.

Some things are better left unsaid as Mr Zaidi said :) I'm with you.
Wisdom comes with age.

Friday, October 15, 2010


You know what, in the first place, it had been mine, do you get this? MINE. But you begged me to join it, you freaking BEGGED. And now you're trying to give me commands in my own territory? I'd gladly accept them if they're reasonable, but when most of us disagree with you, should I obey your commands? ZERO CS. Zero common sense. FYI, I already have new people I've been scouting for quite some time, since the day I started to get annoyed with your ridiculous demands and terrible attitude. And you know why a few others pulled out of your circle? You said they disobeyed whatever you said, but the fact is, you're a FREAKING DICTATOR. Just because I couldn't (note the past tense) find others to replace, doesn't mean I can never find one. In case you didn't know, I had found three potential people long long long time ago, but oh, hey, I said to myself, "He helped me with my MDD. He lent me a few stuff", so many times that I'm losing excuses to tolerate you any longer. At this rate, you're killing one of my biggest passions and you're gonna drag me down to that black hole of MDD. So I'm going to say this straight. I don't want to have a dictator who can't deviate even a tiny bit from his norm, a person who twists his words so frequently that I could almost swear you're Sam's son, deluded in your own idea of being in the limelight alone, and trapped in your own inferiority complex that you downgrade others just to make yourself feel better. You. Can. Kiss. My. ARSE. Now get the hell out of here.

Thursday, October 14, 2010


Oh bangsaku, bercakap dengan semangat, bercakap juga. Bukankah lagi elok kalau diiringi dengan tindakan? Kenapa selalu lari daripada kerja dan tanggungjawab? Kenapa suka bermalas-malas? Kenapa terlampau kuat berhibur dan tak peka dan tak tahu keutamaan? Kenapa kita terpaksa banyak bergantung dengan bangsa lain? Apabila diberikan sedikit pada bangsa lain, kita kuat melatah. Kononnya, ini negara MALAYsia. Tapi apa yang kau berikan kepada tanah air sendiri? Apa yang kau usahakan untuk tempat lahir nenek moyang kita ini? Kau berani kata kau lebih kuat berusaha daripada bangsa yang lain? Kau berani? Apabila orang kata kita malas, kau melatah sekali lagi. Kau kata jangan disamakan dengan yang lain. Tapi kalau sudah majoriti daripada kita bersikap acuh tak acuh, buat kerja separuh jalan, masakan yang lain tidak berpandangan begitu. Kalau kita sudah ada pepatah, "Kerana nila setitik, rosak susu sebelanga", kalau nila itu lebih dari setitik? Malah terlampau banyak nilanya hingga tak terkata, tak perlulah kau mahu sibuk mencarut, memaki yang lain. Tepuk dada, tanya selera. Siapa sebenarnya yang bersalah?

Apabila yang lain kata kita terlampau dimanjakan, kau tipu diri sendiri dan katakan kau sememangnya sudah melalui kesusahan, yang kalau mahu dibandingkan tak sebesar mana pun. Itulah hakikatnya, mahu masuk sekolah, kerajaan sudah sediakan. Mahu masuk IPTA, kerajaan sudah sediakan kuota yang sangat besar untuk kita. Mahu dapatkan biasiswa, pun ada kuota yang besar untuk kita. Semuanya datang dengan senang. Cuba kau bandingkan dengan orang negara lain. Kita memang sudah dimanjakan. Tapi kalau kita tak cuba pelihara, jaga kesenangan yang kita dah dapat, bersedialah untuk lepaskan negara kita kepada yang lain. Dan jangan kau berani mencemuh, mengambil ringan usaha bangsa lain. Usaha mereka banyak menolong kita. Hargailah apa yang kita ada.

Ayah told me this - ada kajian dibuat, setiap keluarga yang senang akan kembali susah dari segi kewangan apabila masuk generasi ketiga atau keempat. Something for us to think of.

Monday, October 11, 2010

Sudden withdrawal

I'm currently on my sixth day of living without it, stopped for a week or so, cold-turkey style. But it comes at a price - I'm also on my fourth day of insomnia :( I have been sleeping only two to three hours daily, unintentionally. I tried my best to fall asleep, avoided caffeine seven hours preceding sleep time, turned off all lights, tidied my bed up, worked myself very hard during the day, and so many more. I need it so bad, I'm not kidding :( Not kidding at all.

This is hard... this is very hard. This is harder than my long case exam for general medicine posting.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

nande mondai

Watashitachi wa koibito dekimasen baai, dakara anata no tame ni kanojo hoshiidesu. Atashi wo shiawase ni shiyou to suru hitsuyoo ga arimasen ne? Kono namida o atashi wa iji shitte imasu... maibandesu. Daijobudesu. Zettai daijobudesu na.

kokoro wa itaidesu

Kono koto ga wakarimasen ka. Atashi o kurushimemashita. Moo gaman dekimasen yo, dakara anata o shinjimasen. Ima wa kokoro ga hontouni itaidesu to zettai shitsuboo shita. Kono ikari ga kinookara kyomade mada shinde imasen. Yakusoku o mamorite kudasai yo. Nanda yo...

Saturday, October 9, 2010

i want to pluck those keys right and check their mouth (Karnival Kampus 2010)

Salam and hello, everybody :) For those who will be in Kelantan from 14-16th October 2010, do come over to Universiti Sains Malaysia (Health Campus) because we're holding Karnival Kampus 2010 :) Stalls will be opened, only RM1 for a complete health check up with consultation :) Haunted house and Henna tattooing service will be available too. Performances will be held, and I shall be involved with one of them, to be specific, mine will be at 4pm, this Saturday. Free dental check-ups will be provided as well. I shall provide dental check-ups too, and my sesion will be at 2-4pm on Friday :) It'll be a busy weekend (not to mention that I have a long case exam for general medicine posting this week :P), but I hope it'll be fun fun fun!

See you guys, there ^_^

Friday, October 8, 2010

kurniakanlah aku kesabaran dan kekuatan

Ya Allah, hanya Kau sahaja yang tahu hampa dan sedih hati aku. Kurniakanlah aku kekuatan dan kesabaran untuk menghadapi ujian ini. Tunjukkanlah kepadaku siapa patut aku percaya. Kerana kepercayaanku kepada sahabat-sahabatku kini goyah kerana perkara itu. Astaghfirullah...
Sebab inilah saya tak suka bila orang mengumpat. Khabar yang baik pun jadi buruk apabila disampaikan dari mulut ke mulut. Tambah dengan unsur bias si penyampai, maka banyaklah cerita palsu, fitnah tersirat dalam umpatan itu. Masing-masing mahu masukkan cerita masing-masing lalu porak-perandalah satu kaum. Janganlah kamu buat begini ya. Honesty is the best policy. Kau boleh kata aku lurus bendul sebab tak sanggup simpan segalanya dalam hati jika berasa kurang selesa (annoyed) dengan seseorang itu. Tapi sebab aku rasa mungkin bersikap jujur dengan seseorang itu barulah masalah ini dapat diselesaikan, barulah aku luahkan rasa tak puas dalam hati terhadap tuan punya badan sendiri. Dan kerana itu, sahabat yang aku sayang, bukan aku saja mahu jauhkan diri dari kau. Cuma aku gusar aku tak boleh menahan diri sendiri daripada turut sama mengumpat. Dan kalau kau berhenti mengumpat dan berhenti prasangka terhadap orang lain hanya kerana kau mahu merasakan diri lebih superior, kau akan nampak indahnya mereka. And I am not a good person, wholly. I have my own bad habits, but to badmouth others... it's just despicable.


You shouldn't have done that. You could've just tell me and I'd help you gladly, but now that I found out you're making use of me all along, I really think I should cease communicating with you. What's wrong with people nowadays? Is friendship merely a tool for success now? AH! NOOBS!

But in a less angry tone... I am very disappointed in you. I hope I can instantly feel stronger than I am currently :(

I am hungry. Since I don't gobble on snacks (be it healthy snacks or junkfoods), I don't have any food in my room and I've kept this stomach empty since morning. I'd like to drive to and restaurants, but knowing myself... I speed when I am pissed off. "Very BAD!", as Dato' says it. Well, that's better than having my stomach speed at secreting gastric juice. Three days ago, I observed a oesophagogastroduodenoscopy. What a long name isn't it? It's actually using a camera attached to a tube to look into your throat, then stomach, and finally the first two parts of duodenum (small intestine) for perhaps bleeding, varices (dilated and weakened veins), ulcerations, tumour, and bla bla bla. Well, whatever it is, I am now certain that I don't want to have gastritis (or commonly called as gastrik) at all.

Thursday, October 7, 2010

happiness 101

I don't think I'm the best person to talk about what one should do to achieve happiness, not when I had a history of... hm, you-know-what, but here's a few principles which I hold on in order to stay rational, sane, and more grateful with what I have.

Don't do anything simply for the sake of impressing people. The harder you try, the funnier you might look. Coolness comes on its own.

Don't make promises when you're at two extremes - very angry or very happy, unless of course you know you're mental is stable enough at making a decision - but this too may be a transient delusion for a person in that condition.

Don't think that we're in the worst position one can be. There's always, ALWAYS someone else who's struggling more than we do.

Don't keep pointing fingers at someone else. When you think time is always insufficient, think again - have you been wasting it? If you don't think so, then think whether you do any of these:
i. Take a long time between two activities, a.k.a hastening.
ii. Eat very slowly - if you're an inevitable slow-eater as I am, then shrink your meal portion when you can't afford wasting time.
iii. Sleep excessively - do you take naps? If you've already gotten enough 6 hours of sleep during night (f.y.i, the golden hours of sleep is only 6 and a half hour instead of public's misconception which is 8 hours. We're young adults, we're not freaking primary school students, for God's sake), then you don't need naps. You take one if you can afford it. If you can't, then don't.
iv. Make futile efforts which you yourself know very well it's... FUTILE - i.e You know you need to finish a work, and yet you keep turning on that laptop and try studying while the movie is playing. Now try to recall the previous 6 slides you have just read. If you can, then, once you've woken up from sleep the next day, try to recall it again. Sometimes, one might say that's how one may focus one's mind on the studies, but my theory is... that's how one comfort oneself that one understands every single alphabet or even symbol in that lecture note/article without actually giving much thought about it. In short, that is to SKIP the reality that one may memorise things easily, but to actually grasp a concept, that's the key to the whole article.
v. Layan blues - unless you know you can do something about those dilemmas.
vi. Stop ahemmmmmm hah!

Always remember that our parents didn't send us here merely for the sake of letting us enjoy ourselves. But they hope we'll bring back certificates. And yet, they sure hate seeing us ditching their teachings as well.

Oh well, whatever they are, I'm not going to say I do all these, but I try. Let us all try our best, together okay :)

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

open it

Oh hey, here's my surgical wound :D My second molar looks healthy after being freed from the pushy wisdom tooth. I'm looking forward to brushing it now that I can gain access to its distal surface ^_^ Please pardon my extensively filled first molar, it became carious when I was fourteen. Oh what to do, I was too innocent to be true :P


My right lower jaw is slightly swollen and today my speech was slurred because I had to avoid having my tongue grazing against the wound. But the swelling signifies that healing process is taking place :) I did think of wearing tudung bawal today instead of my usual shawl, sadly....... I think I have discarded all my tudung bawal T_T Even my patient laughed at my swollen jaw. Well, at least she laughed instead of frowning. Dato' laughed at me too. As usual, he was nagging at us and laughed in the end, and I forgot about my wound and followed suit until a sharp pain slapped me back to my senses. So I had to excuse myself for awhile and when I came back, I forgot that he usually sits in front of the door and I swung it quite hard, knocked him off a bit. I heard people laughing from inside and saw his shocked but still smiling facial expression. "What's wrong with you? Ha? Restless leg syndrome?", he laughed. Sejak bila pula saya ada restless leg syndrome ni. Tidur pun kaku ja badan.

But today, something disappointing had taken place. Sir, as I had said numerous times before. This is how our curriculum go. Do help us at this. We need as much help as we can get :( But I believe things happen at least for a reason. It's okay :)

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

a visit to the dentist :)

Alhamdulillah, my minor oral surgery for extraction of tooth 48 (right third molar) went super fine. Thank you, thank you, thank you, Dr Hisham :)))

So it started with me waking up late. I slept late the night before because I was very nervous (not exactly afraid though :P). Well, not exactly late, my appointment was at 11am and I woke up at 10.30am. Then I searched for parking in front of our PPSG (Pusat Pengajian Sains Pergigian) bulding for ages! Can't believe at a rate of RM1.00/hour, the parking space is still full (it was not like this before)! "Aku kat Kelantan ke ni?", I asked myself, but this is actually an improvement. Pay a little for so much more :)

As I entered Klinik Pakar Pergigian (KPP), I beamed at Kak Nora (the staff nurse in charge of KPP) and Dr Hisham appeared through a sliding door with a camera hanging on his neck. Having a picture taken during a dental visit is the last thing I have in my mind. But oh well, syok sendiri rupanya, dia tengah ambil gambar procedure lain. LOL! Then I was told to get a drink because I haven't taken anything that morning because... I was... NERVOUS AGAIN. Haha.

Came back and he draped me. The scariest part of this operation must be when he covered my eyes with the draping cloth! The rest was A-okay :) I just hate the feeling of being totally out of control, that's why I hate not getting to see everything or feeling my own jaw. When he anaesthetised my nerves, obviously my right lower lip was numbed as well. I couldn't stop thinking of piercing it. Yes there were clunks here and there, screeching sounds as Dr Hisham cut through my bone, and the generally dreaded buzzing sound of the cutting handpiece as he was resecting my third molar in order to extract it easier, but I felt sleepy and rather calm throughout the operation. No palpitation or significant increase in heart rate. "Hey, this isn't bad. This isn't bad at all", I told myself. But after the anaesthesia wore off, my right jaw gradually feels pain, but I'm too lazy to eat painkillers although he prescribed me celecoxib, a selective COX-2 inhibitor. Nonetheless, he was kind enough to give me 3 days of MC! Weeeee~ but knowing myself, most probably I'll still attend Dato's seminar and follow-up certain patients, but I'll resume my rest after that. Hopefully my jaw won't swell much tomorrow and hopefully no infection will occur since I have a long case general medicine exam next week. A fever would be undesirable. So keep on putting clorrhexidine on the wound as well as taking my metronidazole antibiotic (Flagyl).

Speaking of which, my group members and I met a very very kind medical officer in ward 9, HRPZ II. He has just came back from Ireland and was kind enough to teach us so much. I couldn't welcome his generosity more since we're currently facing problems with long/short case teachings. Thank you, Dr :) I haven't known your name yet, and it's not good for a student to not know a teacher's name.

Monday, October 4, 2010

quote of the day

Today, Yeap and Yasmin presented a seminar about Bloodborne Diseases. Yeap accidently pronounced leukoplakia as "Lukopakkia" and he attempted to pronounce it correctly a few times after that. "Luko, liiiuko, leukoplakkia". "What?", Dato' called out. "What did you say? What's wrong with you? Go get your tongue a Botox". Perhaps he was pointing out that Yeap had some sort of tongue paralysis. And while all of us were thinking of the answer to his question which was, "What's the difference between treatment of Hepatitis C and B?", until he called out, "Nur Azizah". "Ha? Dato', what did you ask me?", Jijah asked back. Habis la lu, here it comes, I said to myself. "ARE YOU DREAMING? You sakit jiwa takpe, jangan I sakit hati okay haha", and we all laughed along with him XD But Jijah answered well later :D Congrats, girllll!

Anyway, Dr Hisham shall perform a minor oral surgery on me tomorrow. I'm super nervous, I think my heart's gonna jump out of its pericardial sac! Alright, let me be frank, what I am most worried of is actually... how would it be not to be able to feel a part of your face? It's like... I'm totally losing control. Hwarrrrghhhh, (gets sucked into a nebula).

Sunday, October 3, 2010

oh oh oh

"You orang pertama yang suka Dato', haha", Yenyen laughed. Well, he's not that mean, in fact I think he's the most hilarious lecturer so far. Well, let's recall some of the incidents we had with him.

We had a seminar titled Stroke which was supervised by Dato'. "Okay, okay, you stop there", he said as Yiying was about to present on the investigation part. "How do you... differentiate between... cerebral infarct and increased intracranial pressure?". Student by student was called out but all looked down, too scared to answer although most of them knew it, and someone answered, "Neck stiffness", but isn't that somehow right? I mean, it occurs in subarachnoid haemorrhage, but knowing Dato', he prefers you to explain your answer straight away or he'll discard it. "RUBBISH! You don't even know what you're talking about. Rubbish. Everything rubbish. So many rubbish everywhere". Then he called out Naimah's name. "Shahidatul Naimah". "Saya", Naimah answered. "Another rubbish? I hope not". It's not that I disrespect him, but every provoking word he says have never failed to make me laugh, but of course, I had to restrain myself by pinching my nose and covering my mouth as tight as I can. Air mata bertakung-takung dah, but this time, that's it. I can't hold it any longer, so I let out a laugh, and surprisingly everybody else laughed along, EVEN DATO' HIMSELF! Tension's gone!! - as Russell Peters says it.

And I can't help but to laugh whenever he says those, "My God... what are you talking about", "You confuse yourself", "Very bad. Very bad", "You are all confused", especially when my groupmate, Teh Thian Ngee, opened the wrong door to enter the seminar room. See, this room has two doors, but one of them is blocked with chairs. He mistakenly opened that one. "What's wrong with you?". "Don't go out and in the wrong door. You are confused. You need a mental examination", but he's face was expressionless and that made everything more hilarious! So, yeah, he's not mean after all, is he? He teaches us a lot, especially in medicine fields when a number of others don't. Thank you, Dato' :)

Saturday, October 2, 2010

dan bila esok

Dan Bila Esok by Sofaz cam best :D

I had to go against my words when I said I won't be coming home till Chinese New Year hols. Well, I can't argue against my parents' summon. Anyhoo, hey hey hey, my younger brother, Ahmad, now has his own blogsite! Woohoo~ But you know, knowing him, it's not surprising to find so many political stuff in his blog. Yawn, but that's Ayah's gene that got stuck in Along and him. Although I'm interested in administration stuff (but see I have interest in so many things), I think treating patients would be my priority, in the mean time.

Recently, someone said to me, "You should think positive of yourself", hwarghhh. I can't even get over this addiction towards ()!UE)(UE)!UE) how am I going to think more positive about myself? Well anyway, I have this tendency to expose my weakness to anyone new beforehand, the reason being I hate seeing anyone feeling disappointed because I might not meet their expectations... but I guess it's not a good habit. It's annoying in a way :P

Uhhh, rasa macam nak pergi tandas. Tapi... kucing di aras saya dah buat tandas tu jadi tandas dia pula. Kucing, kucing... bukan aku sengaja taknak bagi kau makan, tapi, kalau macam ni perangai kau... Turunlah bawah sana kalau nak melabur saham bumiputra. Kalau nak pakai tandas, flushlahhh. Speaking of which, I wonder what's wrong with a perfectly fine human being who does the same thing.
I think I have tried my best, I have never apologised to anyone for more than 5 times, but apparently it's not good enough to make you forgive me. It had been almost two years already, we're not on talking term, we haven't made any eye contact since... I don't know... forever? And it is painful enough to have you on my friend list and knowing that you have ditched me forever. So with this, I have removed you for good. You had been a very supportive, good, and kind friend. Thank you for the past 2 years of happiness you brought me. I'll keep that forever in my hard disk. This too shall pass.

Friday, October 1, 2010


It's easier to put up a smiling face than showing your real emotion. It's easier to assure someone things are okay than facing the truth how bad things actually affect you. It's easier to delete a blog entry than deleting certain memories. It's easier to skip a conversation than trying to retract your words. It's easier to sit by the window and reminisce all your wrongdoings than forgetting everything and just fall to sleep. It's easier to cry out of disappointment that spurting out angry words to the culprit.

But in the end, you know there's much more to life than the history and everything else will slowly get back to its place. And they too will pass. You're okay :)


I haven't had any food intake and currently I'm already lightheaded. Weekend is here, and I am determined to recover back all those missed sleep, so I refused to go for breakfast or lunch. Sleep sleep sleep!

Later, Jijah and I will be going to Kota Bharu to visit Daus and get him a Ben10 toy. I have never watched that cartoon, how am I supposed to know which one is best for him T_T See, at current rate, I watch the TV only three to four times per YEAR. It's not that saya takde life, but I have much more to life than whatever the TV has for us!

Malam Raya Persatuan Sains Pergigian (PSG) was held successfully last week :) This picture was captured so beautifully by Izza, thank you :) I am always gratefully that I am in dental school of USM although at times, my interest towards medicine overrides that of dentistry, perhaps due to our curriculum which emphasizes on medicine a lot. But yeah, the support we have from each other is invaluable. Priceless really. So, makcik, pakcik, lu nak condemn gua sebab nanti "Tengok gigi je", suka hati lu la. Lu accident muka remuk, jangan panggil gua okay.

I lost Ahmad's handphone no. :( Adikku, bertahan, Kak Ira akan cari sedaya upaya semula gahhhh!!