Sunday, March 27, 2011

the day i lost my temper

Ever since I was hit an recovered from MDD, I always wanted to lay low and concentrate more on academics and clinics, but today, something someone stated really ticked me off and there I went, messing around with silly varsity hassles. I'm a person who you can consider to prefer being in her safe zone currently I guess... whatever you want to describe that as. No more a brainless daredevil I used to be - the aftermath is too heavy to sustain. The thing about being in this Health Campus - which to general perception might most probably be 'the kingdom of nerds' is we push and point our finger to each other especially when it comes to getting someone to become members of our student council. Perhaps exception to the medical school. I really admire their courage and enthusiasm in this aspect. Another way of saying how things are is we couldn't be bothered to be involved in varsity politics intimately, but that doesn't necessarily mean we aren't bothered about them at all. We're selfish when it comes to this, but once a student is crowned as our representative, we usually give our whole support to him/her. We're no innocent bystanders. In this dental school, we back each other up... and so it is supposed to be. SUPPOSED. Hence, it is agitating to have our voice unheard when any decision is to be made. Well I guess they are just a jumble of misunderstandings stacked upon each other, one by one, and made worse by a sadistic person who shall not be spared from my wrath. Nonetheless, I'd better not act or speak without thinking well or I might be just another pest sputtering rhetorics.

Monday, March 14, 2011

with prayers

Last week had been an eventful one.

Finally, my elective research proposal presentation was over! There were glitches here and there. "DK 1 (dewan kuliyah) diorang kata yang paling killer sekali?", said Dr Aidaniza, perhaps because the deputy dean of research happened to be one of the judges in that hall (there were three venues altogether). Oh well, we can always correct them before handing in our written proposal.

After weeks of wire bending sessions (which included bleeding here and there, blisters and spending nights in the lab), my upper removable appliance was finally completed, Alhamdulillah. It's time to move to the second upper removable appliance. I'll post a picture of it later :)

Then the dreaded graduation night meeting with lecturer committee. Oh well. It turned out okay :)

On a different note...

One of the countries I admire the most - Japan, was hit by a major earthquake, measuring 8.9 on Richter scale and more than a hundred aftershocks. Along with the tsunami secondary to this now kicks the mortality rate to approximately 10 000 deaths. Although we're somehow more relaxed now that there are no aftershock coming in the nearest time, another disaster is looming the rising sun land - the nuclear crisis. The temperature of about five nuclear plants are rising as cooling system fails and the nuclear reactor in one of them is possibly partially melted down. Alhamdulillah, although the current radioactive level has exceeded the safety level, it has not posed significant threat to people's health. Nonetheless, I pray for the Japanese people to be in safety. Amin.

Nurse Wani, who used to take care of us well when we were in second and third year left us all with two of her children. En. Din who used to guide me when I was managing periodontics station during Convex, her husband, is currently comatose. Although his eldest son has regained consciousness, they are both in critical condition. Let us all send prayers for their wellbeing and may Allah grant strength to both of them in facing this test. On a more personal note - the last time I met her was just one day before the accident, in a farewell party for the dean and other retiring/resigning staff. Along with other nurses in our dental clinics, they performed a choir, singing the song titled Di Mana Kan Ku Cari Ganti. Being somewhat different than her usual cheerful self, she was more quiet on that day and I was spared from her nags. Only Allah may repay her kindness. The whole dental clinic felt gloomy today. (News article)

It was indeed an eventful week.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

good thoughts once again

The thing I had been working on for a month:

A pair of complete dentures!

The patient had consented to the publishing of her picture here.

And that's her wearing them and smiling beautifully :)

Today Pokjat told me something... some rumours passed among some people. It somehow reminded me of Wani's latest blog entry. Well, it's their option to believe them or not. It is my job to hold to my beliefs. And if you know me well enough, you should know. I don't cross the lines I draw.

terrible mood

Oh hey, Tune Your Teeth, I haven't seen you in such a long time, and today, I'm in a terrible mood.


Because I'm currently searching for guitar tablatures on Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade. It's one of the songs short-listed to be played during graduation night for medical school. Boy, do you know how much I hate bad guitar tabs? Hold on. It's not 'hate'. It's LOATHE. That's how much I despise them, what more if they are accompanied by their respective tabbers' over confident remarks which most probably won't help learning guitarists out there. What a waste of cyber space and time trying to play or read them.

Then there's this lousy internet connection in the university. Surprisingly it's almost hopeless if you'd like to search and read published journals in a short time and wonderful for Facebooking.

Next will be the song Memori Tercipta by Shila which was also chosen for our performance by Hazwan. It's painful trying to tab it while having to listen to this girl's overexerted vocal (I desperately searched for a minus one version of it). It's like listening someone screaming continuously. Or shrieking perhaps? Yeah... shrieking seems to be the hardest word, Elton John. See, as I had mentioned earlier, I have this weird (perhaps it's not weird, but I'm just too ignorant to read any book about it) hearing impairment in which case I'm less sensitive to low pitch sound and extra sensitive to high pitch, hence, my annoyance when listening to this song. Ah. What to do. For my friend, son. For my friend.

Then there's the water issue. The iron-saturated water problem seemed petty when compared to the recently worsening water shortage issue. Last week the water was totally out for more than three hours and it repeated for a few days. Entering the fourth day, I was ticked off. Give me a break, dear administrators, I'm in my fourth year and I still don't see any improvement in this.

Another issue should be discussed too - the university music room. It must had been such a long time I ditched that place that so many new things were brought in - things which I think should not have been bought provided the current insufficiencies. I don't care if there's any pro-HEP (student affairs department) kid who'd like to bash me for saying this (and I don't give one or two shit about the political fights in the university. Sue me). There are two severely damaged electrical guitars with broken strings and another bass guitar which damage is beyond being repaired lying pathetically in the room and ten Yamaha classical guitars were brought instead. They're non-jacked. I repeat - NON-JACKED. Perhaps they love the idea of sticking a microphone on the guitar when any performance is to be done. There are four amplifiers and only two are working. Of these two, one of the diaphragms were torn already. And guess what was bought instead? A huge flat-screened Bravia, as large as the TV in my own house complete with a digital karaoke set - which may be sufficient for buying at least two good electrical guitars, one bass guitar, and two decent Roland amplifiers . And as far as I'm concerned, the old TV is still fine. Do you know how much renting one of the guitars or amplifiers cost? RM40 PER ITEM. If you'd like to perform, then renting both guitar and amplifier is inevitable. Here, RM80 cashed out just out of pure ignorance and selfishness every single time.

The time I feel most happy would be during outings and when I'm in the dental school. I guess the administration really took good care of our welfare. Well at least way better than the party mentioned above.