Thursday, April 12, 2012
Well, the title doesn't really describe us best as few of us had moved to other cities nearby. I'll be frank, losing a friend isn't something I can cope with well. So as I lost one (basically we're still friends, but somewhat not really? Eh?) yesterday, I was overwhelmed with sadness and guilt beyond expectation (such thing hadn't happened to me for quite some time) that I did the usual thing I do whenever I feel like clearing my head up - take a long drive. I might had sped more than I usually do that I accidentally did a drift once and lost control of the car - also once - while I was about 30km away from my university. Alhamdulillah, nothing really bad happened or I'd be screwed. Adrenaline was rushing, my hands were trembling due to some other stuff, and my lacrimal glands weren't helping much by secreting tears that my vision became blurry. I was somewhat distraught when I arrive at my room. Found my childhood friend, Kishie, online and decided to share my sadness with her. Had a long chat actually, talked about stuff I don't dare telling to any other soul. That made me realise that... I really miss my Subang friends. I miss their company, talking nonsense, pulling pranks, and just... spending time with them. At some point, I just need a person who has a completely different point of view compared to the people here. I'm not dissing anyone here, but the idea of shoving all these science people into one campus separating them from people of other courses isn't really working for me (but I choose to just play along and get my DDS in the shortest time possible). Personally, it restricts our mind - we learn to become more rigid. You're not going to see only people with science background when you work anyway. And these few childhood friends of mine provide me that sense of comfort and openness I'm currently longing for. Just a few more moths to go, insya Allah, and goodbye, USM. I shall return to them - to whom I can just speak my mind without bothering being judged all the time. Well, now, at least some of this stuffiness in my chest is somewhat relieved. Ventilation - a-okay! Now I can think straight. Having them by my side, I know that I am much stronger than I thought. So what if I lose one? I still have them. I still have my family members. I always have my Creator. I still have a number of good friends in the university with whom I cried and laughed with. Zahirah, insya Allah, you'll be fine.
Friday, April 6, 2012
Umi and Ayah are here in Kelate to see me and shopping ^_^ Alhamdulillah, yay! I had been feeling detached from my family and home. I'm really grateful :) Speaking of which... a couple of days ago, I scouted for hotels as Umi instructed. She wanted one that's nearest to Pasar Siti Khadijah, a market where she usually shops at annually, so I chose a humble but somewhat cozy hotel. Yesterday, the very moment she stepped into the hotel, she started complaining and we headed for Grand Riverview instead. Haha, adui... porabih bogheh den drive cari. Nonetheless, having them with me this weekend is much more meaningful than a few liters of fuel.
I longed for such peace of mind since these past few months. This week is particularly stressful to me perhaps because I had to go to Langkawi last weekend by bus (an eight hour trip) just to listen to one lad boasting continuously for four to five hours instead of getting proper education on social etiquette. To some, I might seem exaggerating, but having to do that right after we sat for our exams, I just can't let this incident pass just like that. Ah well, whatever. I already submitted my feedback... emotionally. LOL. And yeah, my left shoulder is getting from bad to worse, I had to resume taking my painkillers. Celecoxib, come to mommy!
While in Langkawi, I was pick-pocketed . Alhamdulillah, my purse wasn't in the outermost pocket of my bag, but my earphones were. RM100 worth of earphones... just like that. Honestly, I think it's stupid. Earphones? Who on earth steals a pair of earphones? If the pocket wasn't turned inside out (I zipped it before exiting the ferry), I would've thought that I misplaced them instead. Son, whoever you are... please choose something more valuable to steal.
Anyhoo, insya Allah, I shall go home on this 26th ^_^ I miss Joni. Le cat, how are you? I'm thinking of meeting up with my Subang girlfriends too. Man, I miss everyone.